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Escapism...

2006-11-27T21:35:00.000-08:00

i realise tt i hav been tryin to escape frm certain issues... somehow i jus dun want to face them rite now... or rather... mayb i dun wish to face it at all... cos somehow facing it always hurts... one if it is abt my uni course... yday nite my parents pressured me again to make a decision... but somehow i get so pissed off abt it tt i was abt to shout: "u all choose for me lah!!! i dun want to tink abt it anymore!"... nva once in my life hav i ever been so nonchalant abt my future... but up till now i still dun understand y... mayb somehow a crushed dream hurts damn deep... i dun noe... :(
this wk is my blk leave... but apparently there's nth much for me to do except stay at home n waste time... cos every1 is busy... uni pple r preparin for exams... n other pple r also busy wif some other stuff... so i guess i cant meet up wif many pple ba... somehow i start to miss my frens outside army... n i realise its been a superb long time since i last had a gd tolk wif any1... the selfish side of me smtimes really wishes tt they will hav more time to spare so tt i can occupy some of their time... but i noe tt its impossible... it doesn't mean tt when im free they will hav to be free... guess its the wrong time for me to hav leave ba... sigh... :(

2006-11-15T21:35:00.000-08:00

clearing my leave now... testing the blogger system to c if i can post a blog alr... hopefully it works... recently i've taken to readin... read lots of books during these past few wks... well... its smth to keep me occupied when days get really boring... life in camp is fun apart frm a few infuriatin incidents... tt's when i realised tt mayb being a nice person doesn't pay off... n smtimes can even land u in great trouble... like i nearly did... but luckily its blown over liao... so i shall not pursue it... nth much to update also... so shall only update nxt time on more stuff... which mite be quite some time ltr... haha... :)

Updates...

2006-10-24T00:39:00.000-07:00

after a super long break frm bloggin... i will re-start again... hopefully my com will co-operate wif me... hmm... basically my life has been gd so far... passed out as 3SG for quite some time liao... den posted to 42SAR... which will be having quite a hectic schedule... so i expect a lot of wkends to be burnt... this wkend is one of the firsts... sigh... i hav so much to write abt tt i dun noe where to start frm... very ironic hor... haha... :)... but hmm... mayb i will come up wif a super long one nxt time ba... its gettin late now... n i hav a kbox outing tml... so tt means i shld slp early n rest my voice rite??? :)... ok... so stay tuned!!!

Off to Taiwan...

2006-09-07T11:21:00.000-07:00

this will probably be my last blog entry b4 i fly off to taiwan tml for 3 wks... will first update a bit abt wad happened to me for this past wk... start off wif sunday ba... oh... glad to say tt i finally managed to hav a lunch wif my KAP pact buddies at carl's junior at suntec... it burnt a hole in my pocket havin to fork out 30 bucks at one go cos i lost to ks over a bet which she n minz started... but it was time well-spent... we had a gd lunch n tolked abt a lot of stuff... esp when the two of them wanted to tell me some pointers abt gettin a gf... haha... den it was bkin in back to camp... dis wk passed relatively fast... jus spent most of our time paintin the tanks... n preparin for the taiwan trip... den bk out yday... went wif a few coursemates to this restaurant in marina sq called "Xin Wang Hong Kong Restaurant"... i've long heard stories abt this restaurant frm them... jeremy was a frequent visitor ever since they went there the last AHM run... but yday was the day which sealed my fate as one of them in their xin wang club... the dish i loved the most was the french toast... it was special n nice... n we made a deal to go there again after we come back to s'pore... haha... i will make sure tt i go... :)
some things just keep comin back to me... n smtimes there's really no way to make myself forget them... how??? :(

3SG HO...

2006-09-01T21:20:00.000-07:00

haha... jus received news tt my new rank is registered as a sergeant in the documents of MINDEF... dis is despite me still wearin the CPL rank... haha... but tt will be officiated in abt 5 wks time after i come back frm taiwan... n my rank is all the more confirmed after i finally passed my SOC test on wednesday wif my personal best timin... i know a no. of pple were prayin for me n encouragin me... thx a lot!!! n im actually quite lookin forward to the taiwan trip dis comin fri... it will be 3 whole wks... n the sad thing is tt our rest n recreation slot is threatened by the current political situation n weather in taiwan... n SAF is soooo protective of its soldiers tt i will actually get confined in the hotel rm if the situation boils over or we encounter typhoon *its the typhoon season now*... in tt case den all i can hav is the tv to accompany me liao... :(...
been pressured recently by my parents to find some info on uni overseas... the thing is tt i m always very sian when they touch on this topic... cos im really facin a dilemma now... i really dunno wad i want... i used to tell myself tt i want medicine... but after i got rejected n accepted pharmacy instead, i dunno whether pharmacy is really wad i want or im jus settling for 2nd choice since i cant get my 1st choice... smtimes i really feel like not wantin to bother abt it... cos everytime i tink abt it i get more n more stressed abt it... but whenever i tink to myself tt dis concerns my future life... i cant help but get troubled over this... n the thing is tt i smtimes delay this till it snowballs... mayb im really tryin to escape frm encounterin this dilemma... sigh... :(

Updates...

2006-08-25T22:20:00.000-07:00

hmm... its really been quite some eons since i last updated my blog... under persistent naggin by some pple... i will update a bit abt my life recently... basically... trainin has slackened off... especially after the 1-wk long single tank battle course... now its all jus preparation for ROC in 2 wks time... in which i will be gone for abt 3 wks... followin tt i will be looking forward to my POP... but sadly can only bring 2 pple... but nvm... i will still shoot a lot of photos... haha...
in recent wks hav been meetin up wif some pple... like the kbox session wif a few of the S73ians... enjoyed tt... been tryin to plan an outin wif my dear KAP pact buddies... but the 2 of them seem forever so busy leh... ks n minz... try to make some time leh... its been damn long since we went out for meals tgt liao... yup... ok... guess tt will be all for this entry ba... AHM on sunday... 10km run... sianz... :(

2006-07-29T09:24:00.000-07:00

haha... im damn happy dis wk... cos i jus got another 200 bucks frm the SAF for gettin my IPPT gold... so tt means i got extra money to spend when i go ROC in september... which is only like 4 wks away... n frankly tt was smth which i hav always tot since young tt it was out of my reach... but fact proves tt i can do it... n really... i must say tt im proud of myself... :) *BHB*
but other things also happened this wk which made me nearly want to vomit blood... apparently it has smth to do wif some1 the whole course doesn't really like... i dint noe tt things were tt bad until i actually had to work wif him... n my crew also agrees so... esp jeremy... cos if u r able to piss jeremy off... u r GOOD!!! *in the negative sense*... if u ever read this entry... pls go n improve ur knowledge on wad to do lah... or else u will jus succeed in pissin every1 off... i commend u for ur efforts to try... but pls try harder... thx... im still restraining myself frm goin all out into conflict wif u... cos i tink its quite pitiful for u... but really... u nd to do smth... :(
yday had surprise visitors to my hse when i reached home after bk out... my KAP pact buddies decided to pop by my hse after sendin joanna off at the airport... haha... somehow they were under the impression tt i had some troubles... but ended up we were viewing photos of their uni FOC... n minz's supposed male lead of the scandal... hahaha... i really hope to ORD soon... then i can go for this orientation... u can bet tt i will be damn on one... haha... really lookin forward to my orientation... n to the pple i will be meetin... sounds really fun... haha... :)

UPdates...

2006-07-14T22:56:00.000-07:00

my mood now is pissed... i dint meant to get angry... but i work things within my own calculations... n if i tink its fine, its fine... plus its my own money... y cant i do wad i want wif it???... ba... nvm... tolkin abt it will only make me more pissed... :(
this entry will be for the past 2 wks, since i havent blogged for so long liao... last sat had 04S73 class outin... well... the last part was enjoyable... tho i must say tt the initial part when we gathered at macs was quite sian... cos a lot of pple were late n stuff... so much so tt john n i were almost abt to go over to sing kbox n come back again... n on tt pt... jas teased me for singin a lot of JJ songs at the kbox session which i kindly sponsored him for... haha... but we passed time playin bridge... n finally decided to head over to the ECP hawker centre for lunch... due to some wrong info... the journey seemed super long... n we were basically tired even b4 we reached the food centre... but of course after tt we finally had lunch n walked all the way back to rent bikes n meet up wif the rest who were joining us... the bike riders left the bladers behind n went straight all the way to the end of ECP... namely me, low, jas, soon, pow n erene... sat at a breakwater n chatted over some potato chips which soon kueh had the initiative to bring along in his bag... :)... following tt... cycled back wif pow meetin an accident halfway n we had to make contingency plans... but glad tt all is ok now for her... yup... :)
den for this wk... training has been rather slack cos its all simulator training... so get aircon the whole day... haha... shiok sia... but the xiong part will only start end of nxt wk when we embark on our crew drills... hopefully i wont get too many confinements den... haha... :)

As Expected...

2006-06-30T20:41:00.000-07:00

hmm... mayb to make my entry a LITTLE bit more interesting, i shall start my pts with the phrase "as expected"...
1) as expected, dis wk has been a super slack wk in camp... basically get so much free time tt i really dunno wad to do wif it... but had a nice devotion session wif my 2 bunkmates (jeremy n shane)... n it was gd... tink i really enjoyed tt... :)
2) as expected, the med sch sent me a letter today... n it was not a letter of acceptance, but a rejection letter... my appeal failed... disappointed??? mayb slightly... but i guess a lot of disappointment was saved cos i expected this kind of results... looks like this really isn't the road for me to go...
3) as expected, i got a warning to cut my hair today... so i shall do so tml... den mayb go library to borrow some more bks cos there is a lot of free time expected for the coming 2 wks... n mayb hang out wif jeremy to buy some stuff... but most imptly... watch my WORLD CUP matches which i was deprived of in camp!!! n mayb tt means tt i will be having panda eyes very soon... but who cares??? :)

Updates...

2006-06-23T21:56:00.000-07:00

spent my 3rd wk in armour relatively fast... got my drivin license on monday after i passed my driving test... so now im finally qualified to drive a tank... haha... shiok... den we had some training in handling some weapons... very very slack time... for once in a blue moon... we actually had 2 hrs plus of free time at nite to do wadever we want... so i took in a disciple for guitar... n he made some progress... so tt's gd... for this wkend... its totally burnt cos i got guard duty... sian... :(...
it really makes me feel very bad tt i cant do anythin much to help when my fren is really experiencin some big trouble... its like i want to help... but i really dunno wad to say n wad i can say... im like most of the time repeating my stand n i tink i sound totally apathetic... mayb my ability to console others has really gone down the drain... :(

Updates...

2006-06-16T21:46:00.000-07:00

hmm... spent my 2nd wk in Sungei Gedong Armour camp liao... this wk we did mainly circuit driving lessons the whole wk round... drove arnd all kinds of terrain, and realised tt its easy to learn how to drive the tank but damn hard to try to control it... got quite a few knocks here n there (not thru my own driving... but all thx to my buddy who sped up when he was driving... giving me quite a few knocks in the gunner's compartment)... n of course... not to forget our daily servicing... which is the worst thing in the whole day... before move out must service... after coming back totally tired still must do servicing also... plus our movement is very slow mayb due to a lack of motivation ba... n im the tank i/c... which means extra work n more stress... argh!!! if only being a tankee can be w/o the servicing part... life wld be better... :)...
for those who r concerned to noe... i hav submitted an appeal to NUS med fac in a last attempt to see if they can change their mind n let me study medicine... still awaiting reply...
n heard smth damn sad today... i most prob will be scheduled for wkend guard duty nxt wk... cos i failed my damn signals test... sigh... tt means a burnt wkend... sux lah... :(

First Week in Armour...

2006-06-09T21:59:00.000-07:00

haha... received a lot of complaints abt my lack of updatin... so here i am... erm... spent my first wk at Sungei Gedong... some silly god-forsaken place tt is soooo super ulu tt u will actually be very very shocked to realise tt there is actually a camp there... but this wk has been really fun... learnt damn lots of stuff tt i will nva hav imagined tt it existed... n got a chance to actually man a tank... haha... shiok... looking forward to more lessons... met a few very familiar pple in the course... like my sec sch gd fren jeremy... haha... so not bored at all... ok... tt's all for updates now... will update more nxt time... :)

Updates...

2006-06-04T21:06:00.000-07:00

hmm... today marks the end of the blk leave for me... n i must say tt this wk has been quite a gd wk for me... went kbox twice within 1 wk... haha... once wif weijie n kuangting, my fellow BSLC kbox fans... n another wif lt, john, pow n txy... enjoyed both... tho i must say tt i sang better at the 2nd one... n watched X-Men 3 wif ks, yanxiang, manson, lester n jiting... actually i went more for the fellowship n company rather than the show... but enjoyed it nonetheless... den for the rest of the wk i hav been really slackin at home n tryin to get enuf rest... so i guess im ok wif reportin to Sungei Gedong camp... :)

Dun Doubt Urself...

2006-05-29T14:32:00.000-07:00

An optimist is a person who sees a green light everywhere. The pessimist sees only the red light. But the truly wise person is color blind.
--Dr. Albert Schweitzer
hmm... was discussing this quote wif lt over msn juz now... my interpretation for it is tt when u set ur mind on smth... dun hesitate to tink abt whether u can do it or not... n i tink smtimes tt's true... the more u ponder and hesitate abt ur ability... the more pressure u place on urself... n the more u cant do the work... so mayb tt can act as a reminder for all of us... :)

CPL HO now...

2006-05-27T22:03:00.000-07:00

hmm... graduated frm SISPEC BSLC today... so now im CPL HO CHOON SIANG... :)... it wasn't easy to come this far... overcame many many obstacles, disappointments, tests... which made the chevrons more cherished... but im glad i finished in gd shape... n i finally overcame my greatest fear of SOC... which i passed on the last test!!! yeah!!! :) n frm now till 040606, im on leave... den im reporting to armour training institute on 050606... hope i end up as a tank comd. after 5 more mnths... but for now... i will enjoy my break... :)
for those who cared abt me n my uni course stuff... i hav sorted it out liao... i will appeal... so tt's settled... but on hindsight... pharmacy mite JUZ suit me better... still contemplating now... pray tt God will giv me an answer soon...
ok... since minz said tt i will respond... i shld lah... so here goes:
4 THINGS/PEOPLE THAT/WHO MAKE ME SMILE:
- a simple word of encouragement frm frens or loved ones
- when i realise tt i really appeared damn stupid a second ago
- a gd joke
- XYZ (where XYZ = any1 who considers urself my fren)

4 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART:
- being gentle n caring
- doin smth damn meaningful for me
- being able to tolk to me in depth
- all of the above *best combo* :)

4 THINGS I BELIEVE IN:
- God
- Perseverance overcomes all odds
- True frens will always be beside u no matter wad happens
- Love

4 THINGS IM AFRAID OF:
- Losing my loved ones n frens
- Getting screwed for things not done properly
- Backstabs frm pple
- Pple tinking of me as some1 who is insincere, cos i noe im not

4 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY:
- wake up at least 15 mins b4 fall-in timing to pack my stuff
- sing
- sleep
- try to get to noe others better

4 PPLE WHO SHLD ALSO DO THIS:
- ks
- xav
- yw
- erene

In the midst of rejoicing, i stand...

2006-05-21T17:56:00.000-07:00

to complete tt statement... i stand disappointed... congrats to all those who gained entry into their desired course... esp for medicine... hope tt u all will eventually become docs who will serve the community well... smth which i was denied the chance to do so... while others are busy relishin their joy... sad to say tt i dun feel the same at all... when i saw tt i had been accepted into pharmacy... my heart really dropped... at first i cldn't believe it... told soon kueh to help me confirm... when his confirmation came... i knew tt was it... i hav officially joined the ranks of a medicine reject...im some1 who is easily resigned to wad i am given... so as for now... i will try to get over my disappointment whhile i plan my future steps... n for those who care abt me... giv me some time n i will be fine... :)

Shagged...

2006-05-19T21:56:00.000-07:00

im feelin very tired now... cos of the defence exercise which i had to dig thruout the nite wif serious lack of slp... n im feelin damn sian now cos im selected to do some wkend sai kang which actually totally screwed up my bk out dis wkend... n i prob cant go church n covenant dis wkend liao... sux... :(... the only advantage is tt i can get to bk out today... apart frm tt... nth much...
got this tag frm minz... quite interestin to play... :)
Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. dont read the questions before you write, and tag 5 pple to do this survey.
1. kaishi
2. minz
3. low low
4. yue siang
5. yan yee
6. irene
7. guan lin
8. serena
9. ping leong
10. yiwen
11. liting
12. erene
13. wei kiat
14. xavier
15. ze jia
16. ying ting
17. nat
18. soon kueh
19. andy
20. daniel

how did u meet 14? (xavier) my sec sch classmate
wad wld u do if u nva met 1? (kaishi) well... i will hav one less very gd buddy... so tt's one confidante less...
wad wld u do if 20 n 9 dated? (daniel n ping leong) oh my gdness... both r guys plus they dun noe each other at all... :s
did u ever like 19? (andy) well... like him as a fren yes... but not the gay type of like... tt's ridiculous... :)
wld 6 n 17 make a gd couple? (irene n nat) frens mayb... but surely not a couple!!!
describe 3. (low low) some1 who is very sincere abt frens... always tryin his best to cheer u up... n a very strong person... :)
do u tink 8 is attractive? (serena) haha... my god-sis... she's a very gentle n nice person too... she's attached anyway... :)
tell me smth abt 7. (guan lin) oh... my er jie... musically inclined... n cares a lot for her frens arnd her... tho smtimes very sensitive n very "xiao mei mei"... :)
do u noe any of 12's family? (erene) haha... nope...
wad is 8's favourite? (serena) hmm... frm wad i can tell... kbox shld be one of her fav hangouts... since i go there wif her quite a number of times... :)
wad wld u do if 11 confesses tt he/she likes u? (liting) haha... quite impossible sia... but i will prob be happy cos some1 likes me... hehe... :)
wad language does 15 speak? (ze jia) english, chinese, n MAYB some dialect... not too sure... :)
who is 9 goin out wif? (ping leong) wif his gf lah... :)
how old is 16 now? (ying ting) 19... same age as me
when was the last time u tolked to 13? (wei kiat) at the previous class outing on vesak day...
who's 2's favourite band/singer? (minz) hmm... sad to say tt im not too sure abt her favourite sia... but i noe she doesn't like quite a number of singers whom i tink r quite ok one... haha... :)
wld u date 4? (yue siang) absolutely out of pt!!! firstly, he's my bro lah... secondly, he's a guy... :s
wld u date 7? (guan lin) haha... not very likely sia...
is 15 single? (ze jia) hmm... dunno leh... but prob attached liao... :)
wad's 10's last name? (yiwen) haha... dis is easy... KOH...
wld u ever be in a serious relationship wif 11? (liting) mayb yes, mayb no... i dunno abt tt... haha...
wad sch does 3 go to? (low low) oh... he's now in BMTC SCH 2... :)
where does 6 live? (irene) somewhere damn close to mount faber n harbourfront n sentosa... haha... telok blangah area ba... she always bragged abt it b4... ;)
wad's ur favourite thing abt 5? (yan yee) haha... she's damn sweet at times but also damn "chili padi" at times also... but most imptly... she's my sis... :)

i tag: soon kueh, jas, xav, yiwen, irene

haha... quite fun sia... but all mentioned above r meant w/o any offence... if u dun agree wif wad i wrote... haha... forget abt this... yup... purely for fun n laughter, peace n joy!!! :)

Bday Coming soon... :)

2006-05-13T22:33:00.000-07:00

hmm... its goin to be my bday in 5 days time... tt means i will be abt to celebrate my 19th yr in this world quite soon... i dun noe how pple will rate me... i hope tt i hav helped pple quite a lot along the way... i hope tt i hav been a gd fren to those arnd me... altho some things dint go well for me... i guess it takes pain for every1 to grow... haha... but anyway... spent these few days exapnding my wardrobe a little... my mum n dad bought me a pair of jeans, while my sis n bro got me another pair... den i bot 2 shirts for myself... haha... cos nowadays hav to wear more of collared shirts n t-shirts... den i dun hav too many of tt... haha... so yup... yday had a class dinner wif 04S73ians... the turnout was surprisingly gd... abt 18 out of 26 turned up... had dinner at the thomson prata hse... *for this i hav to apologise... cos there was some miscommunication n i brought u guys to the wrong place actually*... but like wad every1 said... its the company tt matters... the guys as usual tolked all abt army life n the gals talked abt smth else... haha... tink tt will be the situation for quite some time since the guys will all be in army... after tt went on to town to sit down at starbucks n chat... me, low n jas went up to the food court to hav some desserts... haha... den the rest went for movie while me, pow, jus n soon went home first... hope tt the class can cont. to meet up nxt time... so erene, tt's a task for u... haha... :)
now in response to minz's tag:
I AM: feeling tired
I WANT: to hav more time on my hands to spend wif pple... cos i really find it hard to juggle the short time i hav to spend wif my family n frens
I WISH: tt every1 arnd me will be happy n blessed
I HATE: extra hassle in tasks
I MISS: the gd times i used to hav wif my frens
I FEAR: tt smtimes my frenship is not reciprocated
I HEAR: a tv ad
I WONDER: wad will i be 10 yrs down the rd
I REGRET: mishandling some things tt were impt to me
I AM NOT: heartless
I SING: very often... notably in the bathrm n kbox outings
I CRY: very seldomly now... a grwon up boy cannot be a crybaby
I AM NOT ALWAYS: satisfied wif how i did stuff
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: dunno wad to put for this one...
I WRITE: legibly but not-too-pleasant-to-look-at handwriting
I CONFUSE: hardly anything *or so i tink* :)
I NEED: gd frenships... n if best... a lasting r/s *come on lah... im 19 liao rite???* *despo* :)
I SHOULD: put in more effort in maintaining frenships
I START: on things tt i shld do as soon as possible
I FINISH: after making sure tt the task has been done satisfactorily
I LOVE: every1 as far as possible
I REMEMBER: names extremely well... im basically a name database after u input me wif names
dun kill me for this... but i will end my side of the chain here... will not tag any1... yup... :)

Updates...

2006-05-11T22:25:00.000-07:00

sorry if i cant come up wif another better title for my entries liao... haha... but i guess the title doesn't really matter much rite??? :) this wk has been really a lot of ups n downs for me... on monday... had live firing... in which i had to prone down in mud... yucks... n feed mosquitoes *im scratchin again now cos its SUPER itchy*... but firing my weapon was fun cos its an auto weapon... haha... tue had 16km route march... less blisters n abrasions this time... wed had chemical defence lessons... n today had a chemical defence practical exercise... it was extremely uncomfortable wearing tt individual protection suit... damn stuffy... n we were put into a chamber wif tear gas... n even made to remove the mask so tt we can hav an experience wif the gas "burnin" our face... n interestingly... the exercise was named:" we make grown man cry"... haha... how true... i cried... :)

Updates...

2006-05-05T22:26:00.000-07:00

haha... im typin this entry on my bro's new laptop... this wk has been an extremely shaggin wk for me... cos of the field camp at tekong... frm tue to fri... it started off wif a navigation exercise arnd the WHOLE tekong island... n my grp wasted soooo much time finding our first checkpt cos they shifted the checkpt to another location w/o informin us!!! n we walked n walked... thru-out the whole field camp... i tink i walked more than 20km... n now im havin serious abrasions n blisters... will be walkin like a penguin... :(... den followin tt we had our individual assessments... cheong-sua again up n down 5 or 6 times... n one more thing is the serious lack of slp... sigh... im feelin sleepy now... will update more nxt time ba...

Do I still hav a dream???

2006-04-29T16:40:00.000-07:00

ok... the title sounds pessimistic for a start... but tt is exactly wad im feelin towards my medicine dream now... had my interview on thursday... n i must say tt it has been extremely gruellin for me... esp when i really felt tt i really cant answer the qns they gave me well... most of the time i myself dint noe wad i was tolkin abt... n to top tt off, for the 2nd round... i actually appeared so unsure of whether i really wanted the place... frankly... i nearly cried when they really teared me down bit by bit... i almost couldn't take it tt i cldn't convince them abt wad i really wanted to do... y must God giv me a chance only to smash me down damn hard???... if there was anything tt i can hope for now... its a super big miracle... which i tink will be well likely not to happen... so mayb this goes my dream for yrs... juz wanna wish the others who applied gd luck... u all probably hav one less competitor now...
for the rest of this wk... nth much tho... except tt i went thru a lot n a lot of bad stuff... for one... i committed a chargeable offence... which i dun want to mention now... but luckily for me they let me off after givin me some punishments... den had to write countless statements... i appeared like i was repeatedly punished for the same offence... ba... if there was anythin tt can be slightly better this wk... i did well for my SOC timing... 9.51s... but too bad i still failed an obstacle... so tt means more corrective trainin for me... sigh... :(

Updates...

2006-04-22T23:11:00.000-07:00

hmm... my mood now???... tired, but still... i must finish bloggin here first b4 i go on for my supper of carrot cake... haha... this wk in SISPEC has been very very xiong... practically everyday hav to go outfield... n wad's the worst thing abt outfield trainin??? its tt u hav to camo on n off... which totally sux... n it really blocks the pores of the ur face... which will result in the poppin out of pimples on ur face... den this wk went to Lower Mandai to "horlan" *which means to bash into the dense vegetation n lose ur way arnd*... hmm... super shaggin... plus the silly checkpts were off lor... so my grp spent like how many hrs searchin for a silly checkpt... argh!!!... its damn irritatin n frustratin when u noe tt u r at the correct place but u juz cant find it despite combin for so long... but for the test we were lucky... out of 6 checkpts... we found 5... tho not w/o helping zy try to find his lost antenna... which was damn unlucky for us... den today bk out was super rushed... always like tt as per usual... really wonder y they must always plan it like tt... den followin tt, went j8 to meet lt to teach her a bit of basic music theory... den had dinner tgt n got persuaded to sign some plan after we got stopped by some road-show personnel... wonder y im so gullible... haha... ok... more updates nxt time ba!!! :)

Accepted!!!

2006-04-16T00:41:00.000-07:00

ok... i deleted the earlier post cos its no longer relevant... i hav received the letter tt i hav been shortlisted for interview by NUS med fac... which brings me a step closer to realising my dream.. thank God!!! :)

Long Break...

2006-04-14T21:11:00.000-07:00

hmm... today is the 1st day of my long wkend break (3 days)... n i spent the morn in church for good fri service b4 headin out to toa payoh wif pl n low for lunch n a kbox session... haha... met my god-sis serena there... but apparently she's a bit troubled by smth which i will not mention here... hope all will be fine for her... :)... for the past wk in SISPEC, life has been quite slack... cos its a short wk n to tink tt we got a nights out on monday nite, in which i spent at a LAN shop at jurong east playing Command n Conquer Generals Zero Hour wif shane... my first time playin in a LAN shop... haha... but of course, nights out means serious compromisation on slpin time... so the nxt day i was sooo super tired tt i fell asleep at every single lecture n lesson... *but den again... i will still be more than willing to hav nights out... such is the poor life of an army boy*... tuesday nth much... except tt OC gave us a gd pep tolk cos wed was our IPPT... n he said tt those who got silver can get early bk-out on the following 2 saturdays... sounds attractive enuf... so i chionged for a silver n clocked my personal best for both chin-ups n 2.4km run... i got my silver... which means im officially out of nite PT n i can get to bk-out early... but tt nite... OC tolked to us again n this time he said tt he was unsatisfied wif the number of gold we had... so he wants all who dint get gold to chiong again... (the irony is tt they promised us tt those who got silver n above n dint want to try again can skip the nxt IPPT... so all tt is now void... every1 has to do again)... ok... oh... den on wed afternn i had my compass course... where they dump us inside this small hill n made us traverse the hill left n rite in search of our checkpts... i fared quite ok... so hopefully nxt monday when they throw us into the mandai jungle i can be spared frm losing my way inside the jungle... which can be quite scary... :(... den thursday had SOC... sadly i still cant clear the low rope... but i made tremendous improvement... so mayb by the nxt one i can do much better liao... haha... tt will be all for my army life this wk... to my dear guy frens who r still serving their NS... gambatte neh!!!... :)

Updates...

2006-04-08T16:10:00.000-07:00

its been quite some time since i last blogged liao... my last entry is supposedly on 30 mar, which is abt 9 days plus b4 today... so to prevent this blog frm premature death, i shall update it once again... sigh... realised tt most guys nowadays can only tolk abt army life... n now tt xav has gone in liao... frm today onwards the whole class of guys will be so busy tolkin abt army whenever we meet up... but for me... this wk has been quite gd... cos i managed to clear my low rope for SOC.. which has weighed on my heart for very very long ever since tekong life... thx to all the encouragement frm pple like zishi n lt... as well as my bunk mates who hav been highly encouragin n patiently coachin me... but its still very funny... cos out of the 11 obstacles, i can only clear 10 no matter wad... its either low rope or swing-trainer (aka monkey bar)... hmm... guess its more trainin ba... den on monday n fri we had live firing... which i tink i kinda screwed up the experience cos i was too excited n nervous n forgot wad to do... so i got a lot of misses... but since its juz some familiarisation shoot *which means shoot for fun*, doesn't matter... oh... den on wed nite we had nites out... shiok... a whole grp of guys harboured arnd jurong point... n i watched Ice Age 2... haha... its a super funny comedy despite the story havin a bit of no link at some parts... but its really lame n funny... n a lot of those who watched were highly amused... great way to relax... :)... so the anticipation for this wk is a yet-to-be confirmed lunch wif my KAP pact buddies n a much dreaded bk-in tml at 2130h... n happy bday to minz!!! yup... 19 yrs old liao... but dun worry... ks n i will catch up wif u soon... :)...
now to more personal stuff *tho its still related to army*... im kinda bugged by the way some pple behave... i c selfishness, refusal to co-ordinate cos they dun like some1, and also bad-mouthin to some extent... i mean... this really shldn't be the way... n it really pisses me off at times... i hope i can change tt someday... yup... may God help me... n im startin to worry abt my application to med sch... sigh... at first i tot by this wk will noe results of shortlistin... den since my parents dint inform me abt anythin... i tot my hope was gone... den luckily david told me tt the results will only be known latest by 20 apr... so mayb there's still a bit of hope left ba... :) argh!!!

Updates...

2006-03-26T16:09:00.000-08:00

hmm... this wk has been super bad for me... ok lah... mayb tt's a bit exaggerated... but i've been posted to F Coy in SISPEC... which has the rumour of being one of the most xiong companies... new pple, new place, new requirements on discipline n physical fitness... im still tryin to catch up... n SOC is such a pain in the neck cos i cant clear it... n there's an SOC run tml... sigh... disappointments set in one after another n smtimes its really hard to maintain a positive tinkin... pray tt God will help me... sigh... :(

Posting...

2006-03-18T22:22:00.000-08:00

ok... i know this came a little late... haha... i got posted to SISPEC... which eventually will land me in the rank of 3SG if i complete the course... so a few more mnths of intensive outfield training awaits me... not too pleasant to tink off considerin how much i hated the field camp... but well... i jus hope tt i will be able to do my best there... n to be a positive witness for God... yup...
these few days has got me tinkin quite a lot abt some stuff... hmm... stuff like my uni applications, NS posting n also some personal stuff... sigh... it seems abit strange to start tinkin abt all these stuff after 9 wks in tekong where usually im too tired to tink abt anythin n i will juz collapse onto my bed... but anyway... the break's endin soon... sigh... y r breaks always so short???... i nd more time to do up my stuff, to catch up wif pple n so many more... but im glad for some of the pple whom i hav caught up wif... apparently some of the major things botherin them hav been solved... but for others, new worries r surfacing... but no matter wad... dun worry too much... my parents hav this little poster in the toilet which talks abt worrying... n i like the last statement:" Worry nva solved a problem, but may well become a problem. So why worry?"... haha... interestin... :)

Johari's Window...

2006-03-16T13:52:00.000-08:00

http://kevan.org/johari?name=choon+siang

hmm... pple... if u tink tt u qualify to noe me ok enuf... help me do this johari's window... thx... :)
oh... i used to not care much abt this stuff... but since every1 seems to hav had a try at this... i tot tt mayb i shld juz hav one for myself n c wad pple tink abt me... for fun also lah... but soon kueh told me tt this mite help for interviews also... haha... added advantage... :)

Updates...

2006-03-15T11:03:00.000-08:00

hmm... realised tt i super long nva update liao... so shall juz briefly update a bit on wad I hav been doin for the past 2 wks... for those who perhaps mite not noe yet... I hav finished my BMT trainin in tekong... POPed on 080306... so im now officially PTE HO CHOON SIANG... n wif tt comes along a 100 bucks increase in pay... haha... n im now enjoyin my long block leave till this comin sunday... den hav to report to NS life again on 200306... but for now... im quite enjoyin my slackin life... despite repeated reminders frm my dad to do up my personal statements... but frankly i also dunno y i appear so bo chup abt it... mayb NS numbs u towards basically everythin except commands... haha...
090306: in the morn went for a reflections trail in which we were brought arnd for sightseein... quite a waste of the morn actually... den after tt went to send my gd fren low low off for enlistment... haha... its a totally different feelin when i returned to tekong as a private soldier... den i also had a gd time sharin wif low low on some tips n stuff he mite encounter durin his training life... hope he's still doin well now... tt lasted till arnd 7pm plus... den i rushed to suntec city to meet the church pple for dinner at marche's... the meetin time was supposed to be 6.30pm... but i reached there only at 8pm plus... haha... so in the end only managed to be in time for dessert... followin tt we went to the rooftop garden in esplanade where i once went wif 04S73 after our class dinner... had a round of crap talkin... n celebrated lester's bday... haha... :)
110306: went for NUS open hse wif jas... basically i went there wif only the intention to hear more abt wad they hav to say abt the various courses... dint really affect my choice of courses... for me... med, pharmacy, followed by bio n chem engineerin... met a few 04S73ians there... yw, cj, erene, hoohoo, john, n they say xav was there also... but i dint get to c him... haha... den went down to church for covenant...
140306: went out wif lt n jas for a kbox outin... jas was highly entertainin wif his oldies... n i actually managed to regain my singing there... haha... i tot i lost it after wks of strenous singin in NS... quite enjoyed myself wif the 2 of them... :)
ok... tt shall be my update for now... will write more when i hav the time... :)

A Level results!!!

2006-03-01T20:40:00.000-08:00

hmm... i must thank God lots for my results... tho i missed wad i aimed for i.e 4 As... i managed to scramble 3 As n 1 B... B for physics is alr quite gd for me... initially tot i will get a C or below... considerin how i screwed up the paper... haha... den B3 for GP n a merit for Chem S n distinction for Bio S... which is quite amazing... haha... but wad matters most is tt i can apply for medical sch... n my hopes r not dashed as yet... tink most of the pple i noe will do pretty well... so to all of u, gd job!!!... to those who dint do as expected... dun be too discouraged... cos its not the end of the world yet... continue to jia you!!!... sure u all can do it one... haha... so today after collectin my results, went out wif 04S73 to Swensens' at PS to kinda celebrate... haha... the guys had a gd time sharin abt their experiences in NS... while the gals tolked abt smth else im not too sure abt... cos i was quite engrossed wif laughin n sharin at the NS side... haha... i had banana crumble, hot fudge sundae, n some more ice-cream... die... im gaining weight... n tt means im gonna fail my SOC n IPPT also... haha... oops!!! :)

The Time Has Come...

2006-03-01T11:00:00.000-08:00

argh!!! will be collectin my A levels results in about 3 hrs time... actually... till yday nite... i must say tt i was quite numb towards collectin my results... no feelings abt it at all... but suddenly on my way home frm tekong camp juz now, a sudden feelin of nervousness caught me... the results tt i will collect will determine my future life frm now on... the results tt i will collect will affect whether i can fulfill my dream of enterin into medicine n having a career there... but of all... wad i fear most is tt my dreams mite be shattered cos i seriously dun feel confident abt it at all... i juz pray tt God will help me to accept wadever comes my way... if its in his will tt i go into medicine, den so be it... if not... pls help me to accept a new direction tt im takin... yup... so to all those collectin results, all the best!!! :)
P.S: frankly, it really felt awkward tt i had nth much to say... not too much common topics liao... :(

NS... waste of time???

2006-02-25T23:18:00.000-08:00

haha... im finally back again... this wk has been super demoralisin in army for me... i failed my IPPT, failed SOC, den went for SIT test frm thurs wif high hopes of myself leadin the team to complete their mission successfully... but all dint turn out well... cos i realised tt i cant really tink very calmly on the spot... so for the 2 missions tt i led... both failed in the end... but i believed i did better for the 2nd mission than my 1st mission... so MAYB tt mite be considered an improvement??? but anyway... i guess i dun hav high hopes anymore to enter command sch... so mayb waitin for A level results mite be an option... since if i can get gd grades n enter med sch i can still be an officer... but easier said than done... so i guess mayb tt one wont work out also... sigh... den NS mite juz jolly well be a stupid waste of time... but one thing i hate abt NS is how the superiors treat us smtimes... smtimes i tink they treat us like some entertainment objects... which is freakingly nonsensical... lower rank than u doesn't mean u can juz "play" wif us as n when u like it... if i was to become a superior i will make sure tt i dun do tt to my men... yup... ok... im damn tired now... super shagged... will update more nxt time... :)

Questionin myself...

2006-02-18T16:40:00.000-08:00

finally im back after a confinement in tekong due to the seriously sucky but on retrospect enjoyable 7-day field camp... n durin these 2 wks... i really went thru a lot to discover abt myself... smtimes pple may not be wad they seem... when the critical moment comes, i still am a selfish person at times... i will find means to try to get out of the work... n i may not be as willing to help others at times... esp when my physical n mental strengths hav been really exhausted... of course guilt sets in after tt... but den... wad's done has been done... n i can only hope tt i can further atone for my mistake... sigh... sorry to XXX... :(...
now to update abit abt my NS life so far... i have completed 6 wks of BMT liao... there's only 3 more wks left... wif the major events being the SIT test (in which they test ur suitability to be a commander), SOC n IPPT... after this, i will graduate out of tekong island as a private... n which means tt u can order recruits arnd... so seriously... recruits r really the lowest lifeforms in SAF... its on the 8th March... n i shld be goin back again on 9th March, not for recourse but to witness low low get enlisted (tt's if he has tix for me)... n tolkin abt becomin a commander... initially i went into BMT wif a strong desire to be a commander... but later... i found out tt i mite not be able to make it after all... my physical ability sux... n i m not really tt able to work under immense stress... sigh... mayb im really not cut out to be one in the first place... :(

Shagged, shagged, shagged...

2006-02-04T17:11:00.000-08:00

sigh... finally im home after 3 days of quite taxin PT n IPPT today... sad to say, i still failed my pull-ups... but i did 3 today... more than any of my practices despite havin a super shagged body... so i guess tt's quite an improvement... will work harder... hmm... dis wk did things like practisin how to throw my handgrenade... n durin the practice i did quite ok... but durin the GAC, i kept on gettin scolded by my PS for always failin to find my grenade after i throw it... he even threatened to make me leopard crawl to find it... ok... oh... my shootin improved quite alot after i got my eye patch... at least now i can shoot more on target... haha... n live range shootin is comin soon... hope i can do well... but the field camp tt is also comin up sounds damn terrible... appears like no matter wad u do... u will always get tekaned... juz hope i can survive it... n these few days... my mood has been roller coasterin all the way... i face challenges wif my physical n mental n even my emotional aspects... n smtimes... i really feel like givin up n juz collapsin... but i guess i really hav to learn to cope wif it... i noe it isn't easy... but i will rely on God n my family n frens to tide thru it... yup... I WILL EMERGE TOUGH!!! :)

Updates...

2006-01-27T22:37:00.000-08:00

haha... im back finally... tho it seems like an infinity liao... so much so tt minz actually declared my blog a "deserted" one... ok... shall giv every1 a brief update on how i hav been doin so far in tt tiny little island of tekong... my cough n flu has basically recovered liao... thx to the stronger medicine tt the MO gave me... so life is slightly better since i cough much less... but i realised one horrible fact... my cough comes back whenever i exert myself... hmm... tt's smth for me to take care of liao... this wk the commanders hav been super nasty... literally turned to demons liao... within this wk i can say tt i did far more push-ups n crunches than i hav ever done in my life... did a grand total of 87 push-ups jus last nite thx to my extremely garang platoon mates... den did some more for wadever punishment for movin in a file, walkin slowly (when we r super shagged liao???), warm-ups... n for all kinds of funny reasons lah... sigh... n this wk hasn't been a gd one for me... i still cant do my pull-ups... i still cant clear my SOC completely... n my shootin practices hav been really bad... i failed every single round... cos smtimes when i aim at my target liao... den my eyes will suddenly blur out n i lose my focus... sigh... looks like i really might not be able to POP... n plus now im startin to hav some sprain injuries n all kinds of funny stuff happening... my body is abt to collapse soon liao... argh!!!... tt's y i MUST treasure this long CNY break n try to meet up to catch up wif as many pple as possible b4 i bk in again on tue 7.45pm... sigh... but i tink i most prob wont hav too much time ba... n meanwhile... ppls do take care of urselves... for those who r sick... do take extra gd care of urselves n dun binge on CNY food hor *which is quite impossible*... for those who r facin difficulties at work... do push on... n always stand by ur principles... yup... i will also jia you one... so lets all pull thru, ok??? :)

Book Out Again!!!

2006-01-21T22:18:00.000-08:00

yeah!!! i bk-out of army camp today at 1800h... reached home at abt 2100h after havin dinner wif my family... after spendin abt 10 days in camp... i experienced a lot... n a big lesson learnt is to nva report sick unless STRICTLY necessary... cos i did so on thurs... n i got Attend B (which means light duties) till today... n i missed a hell lot of lessons like the 6km route march today... n which means tt i hav to make up for it... sux... n life doin light duties really is borin... u juz end up sweepin floors... helpin to move stuff here n there... n if there's nth for u to do... u simply sit there n stone away for 2 hrs while the rest go abt doin their trainin... sigh... its super boring... plus u r not allowed to slp while stonin... which makes it all the more difficult... :(
during these few days, time seems to pass like infinity... n i've accomplished n failed in quite a lot of stuff... but i guess my determination n perseverance has increased... for example... durin the SOC... i had quite some prob clearin the monkey bars... but wif some determination... i actually managed to clear it... smth which i nva tot i cld do since i always had probs wif monkey bars since young... yup... but i still had probs wif clearin the low rope... guess i nd to work on tt liao...
n yes... i've finally started to shoot... tho its simulated one lah... but its fun... but its a bit funny for me cos firstly, my master hand is my right hand wif a left master eye... n i hav probs wif closin one eye... somehow i juz cant do it... so im supposed to get some eyepatch thingy... plus some other stuff as well... argh!!! but im lookin forward to seein pple tml... n mayb meet up wif some more frens durin the CNY break... haha... so quickly bk me if u want... cos time is limited... :)

First Book-Out...

2006-01-09T20:33:00.000-08:00

hio peeps!!!... im out of BMT frm now... but only for abt 23 hrs more countin frm now... hmm... im not supposed to write anythin abt wad happened to me in the camp (there's this some kind of law enacted... so to play safe... i wont do lah... interested to noe juz come n ask me... :) )... but these 3-4 days of camp has been quite ok for me... tho im a bit sick... 1st day in tekong kena sick liao... haha... suay... so had some cough lah... but still ok lah... hopefully i can get well soon enuf... but apart frm tt i tink im still adjusting well... n im in Jaguar company platoon 1 section 3... haha... so pple outside... do cont to take care until i c u all again when i bk out again on 21 jan... i agree wif soon kueh... the only thing u tink of is when u bk out again... hahaha... :)

Tekong-bound...

2006-01-06T08:46:00.000-08:00

hmm... in a few hrs time i will be leaving... thx to all for ur encouragements... :)... i really hope to c ya all soon... sigh... at the tot tt this will be the last time for a few wks tt i will get to slp in my bed, hav a look at wad a computer looks like, watch tv, taste my mum's cookin, c my family, n actually be able to comb my hair... i must admit tt im a bit sad... but beneath tt sadness i m excited... becos this is goin to be a new phase in life... n i really hope to make gd use of it... whether i enter OCS nxt time or not is unimportant... but i really hope tt this time can be a life-changin time for me... n mayb when u start to get busy... u tend to tink less of some stuff... yup... to my 2 dear wives: sorry for havin to neglect u all for this comin 2 wks... i promise tt i will look after u all when i come back... haha... sounds so mushy... :)... i cross my fingers tt i can come out for hari raya haji... haha... n till den fellows, adieu n take care!!! :)

From Boy To Man...

2006-01-05T14:10:00.000-08:00

hmm... in abt 24 hrs time i will be setting foot on tt mysterious island in the northern part of singapore which has the magical ability to turn boys into men... n nice crops of hair into neatly shaven little spikes... my feelings now???... hmm... a bit nervous n excited ba... cos its goin to be a totally new life in there n i MITE meet some new pple n of course, i know of some old frens who will be goin in wif me... im crossin my fingers tt we will be in the same section... but the first thing to do when i get in there is to find a buddy... hopefully God will arrange for me some1 who is trustworthy n i can connect wif... den mayb my army life wont be so boring n routine... haha... so to all those still stayin put on the mainland... take care... i seriously hope tt it wont be too long b4 i get to c u all again... but den... things on tt island r quite unpredictable (u dunno when u mite juz kena duty or wadever)... n to those abt to set foot on tt island... c ya all there... :)

Many Thanks...

2006-01-03T21:57:00.000-08:00

hmm... its been quite some time since i last blogged liao... been busy these few days wif "farewell sessions" b4 i enter into tekong... thx to all who wanted to giv me a farewell session... n im really sorry towards some pple for not being able to make it... really hope tt we will still hav time to meet up nxt time... *tho i tink its goin to be much harder*... but i promise to try... haha... today woke up very early to send off our dear Ms Wong at the airport... only 9 pple turned up... but cant be helped since most pple had to work... n of course some guys wanted to slp longer... *NS hav to wake up at 5.30am one hor... *... haha... but she was quite busy entertainin other grps of pple tt she dint really hav time for us... but being masters of self-entertainment like us, we busied ourselves updatin every1 else on wad went on since we last met... n some funny stuff tt happened... after sendin ms wong off... we went to the staff canteen for breakfast... haha... n we learned a hard lesson there: MUST specify ur servin size or they will qiao1 u one... haha... the return bus journey was really long... took abt 1 hr for me... den shortly ltr in the afternn i met xav again... cos he helped me buy some NS stuff frm the army market... thx a lot xav!!! :)... u really saved me a lot of trouble... owe u one ren2 qing2... but dun noe if i will hav a chance to repay or not... haha... :)
been feelin a bit distanced frm some pple recently... its juz this weird feelin tt we can not tolk like how we used to in the past... n somehow i realised tt my mind is a bit stonin when i tolk to pple... which results in me givin quite meaningless answers... sigh... dis is really not wad i want to c... :(

Updates...

2005-12-30T11:17:00.000-08:00

been away at a family chalet frm 28 to 30 dec... n i juz got home feeling a bit dreamy cos of the intense lack of slp over the 2 nites... smth like wad happened durin class chalet... haha... came back only to realise tt my tagboard has been mercilessly spammed by my dear 04S73ians... *come on lah, besides our class, i cant tink of anyone else who will derive self-entertainment frm this*... :)... i expect even more hectic stuff for this comin wk... 7 days exactly left to date of deforestation (cutting my hair)... n i still havent started on my exercise routine... die die die... hopefully i can start tml... tink i will nd some super motivation lah... haha...
listened to the jay chou cd... n i tink i hav another fav song liao... feng1... somehow the melody juz touches u... *i dun noe abt the lyrics yet... havent had a chance to c...*... haha... :)

Class Dinner 26/12/05

2005-12-27T09:55:00.000-08:00

hmm... had our 04S73 class dinner yday... attendance rate was gd... 17 out of 26... those who dint come... hope u all hav a gd reason arh... haha... juz jokin... but i really hope tt this can continue to keep up over the yrs... *im referrin to the over-half attendance rate... not being absent... :)*... being the dutiful reporter tt i always am... i shall giv a short write-up abt the dinner yday...
1) we met at city hall mrt at 5.20pm *actually... i was late... courtesy of me missin a bus frm minz's hse after a game of bridge n dai dee*... as i went up the escalator... really cld feel myself being so excited at finally being able to c the class again after abt 3 wks since prom... for some, it was one mnth... the class dint change much... we r still as we hav always been... haha... :)
2) went down to esplanade thai express... where we found out tt they arranged for us to sit outside... no air-con... n it was abt to rain... they claimed tt there were not enuf seats inside... ok... den we had a round of strugglin wif tryin to place orders cos we dun understand Thai... n the food pics put into the menu had no numbers attached to it... so i seriously dun noe wad was the pics for... serving food was quite slow actually... n they somehow managed to forget my order!!!... thus... after abt every1 in class was finishin their dinner... mine came... dotz... :(
3) had a long long chat session till abt 8.45pm... there were abt 3 grps of conversations... erene n co. were one grp... wx n co. were one grp... n 3 silly little guys (me, mollie n low low) were nowhere... hahah... but topics were quite different liao... work was one fav topic among the gals... n the guys were tolkin abt their future life in NS... which is not too far away after all... settled to bill to realise tt we had an excess of 10+ bucks... wonderful neh... so 2 pple shared one ice-cream... haha... n we proceeded to the rooftop terrace for more tolkin...
4) i suggested a game of polar bear... did one round... yw n xav were damn gd at polar bears... they survived all the way to the end... until there was really no one to kill liao... on the contrary... john was the policeman who got killed very soon... haha... but luckily he dropped some hints while he was "alive" tt led to the successful killin of xav towards the end... haha... den it was a round of updatin each other wif our present situations... seemed like every1 was doin quite fine... we concluded our session wif the qn which fy n team had been researchin on ever since j1 last yr: "if every1 in the world died except those in our class *wonder y our class so lucky...*... who wld u marry???"... some pple remained faithful thru the 2 yrs... pple like alvin low... while i tink a few changed liao... haha... but the overall hot favs were erene n mollie... :)... followin tt... we left in grps... to continue on wif our own journeys but wif a deal to meet up again durin orientation campfire *which a few guys like me, mollie, mz n cj cant join cos we r enlisted on tt very day!!!*... argh!!! but the rest shld come back if u all can... haha... let the spirit of 04S73 live on... :)

IM BACK!!!

2005-12-25T20:58:00.000-08:00

ok... really sorry for the long long long long break... not tt my blog is dead liao... juz tt dear CS is so busy wif so many stuff... i guess i wont blog abt the events tt hav taken place these few wks liao... or else a lot of pple will complain tt my this entry will be tooooo long liao... haha... but i had my youth camp in church... followed almost immediately by a trip to malaysia... den had christmas celebrations n stuff... wah... im really a bit shagged... den comin up for this wk i still hav 04S73 class dinner tml... n chalet wif my cousins frm 28 to 30 dec... haha... n my NS enlistment date is officially 12 days away... n i hav yet to start on my trainin routine... sigh... haha... :)... well... guess i will take each day as it is ba... n thx to all who sent me christmas greetings... be it by sms, card or gifts... haha... its really heartwarmin... but im really sorry tt i wasn't able to send back cards or anythin... so here's one big MERRY CHRISTMAS N A HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!! haha... *cheapskate*... haha... ;) love ya all!!!
P.S: I M HAPPY!!! haha... :)

Heart-warmin greetings!!!

2005-12-12T22:44:00.000-08:00

haha... juz tonite... i got a christmas card frm dear soon kueh *who is now sadly in tekong*... hey... soon soon... if u r goin to read this when u come out... juz noe tt its really nice n heart-warmin of u to do tt... yup... take care in tekong as well... :)

2005-12-11T07:20:00.000-08:00

04S73 at the grand piano singin our famous songs... :)

2005-12-11T07:17:00.000-08:00

04S73 guys b4 leavin for ritz carlton... a whole grp of shuai guys... :)

2005-12-11T07:14:00.000-08:00

guitar exco 2004/2005...

2005-12-11T07:13:00.000-08:00

the physics pple of 04S73... we love Duncan!!! :)

2005-12-11T07:11:00.001-08:00

juz 04S73...

2005-12-11T07:11:00.000-08:00

class pic taken wif rudy lee... tink he looks juz like one of us... haha... :)

2005-12-11T07:09:00.000-08:00

my PW grp... HC140 2005... :)

2005-12-11T07:07:00.000-08:00

the asst CT rep, CT rep n welfare rep of 04S73 2005... me, erene n xav

Prom... a whole nite of wonderful memories...

2005-12-09T21:42:00.000-08:00

a wonderful nite of wonderful memories... tt's how i wld describe our prom nite 2005 at ritz carlton... really enjoyed the last moments we will spend wif each other for prob a few yrs to come... n i tink i agree wif xav's comment... there was really so much so much tt was so wonderful... haha... will show the pics after i uploaded them... for now i wish to do a small report... haha... :)
1) rushed out for prom cos i took quite a long time to put on my contact lens... haha... newbie... cant blame me... but even then... im proud to say tt im the first to reach... where i was supposed to meet yw, xav, wk, jy n jas... haha... it was quite embarrasin at first... cos jy n wk were late... n the bulk of the money for the hotel rm was wif jy... haha... so when fy's mum asked us for money... me, xav n yw were forkin out our money... but luckily jy n wk came soon after... n the money prob was solved... *btw... some pple still owe me money... haha... will claim frm u all durin our christmas event*...
2) after a mad rush of settling... me, jas, wk n xav took a cab down to far east plaza to do our hair cos we were late... haha... n there was a jam lah... so we arrived REALLY late... haha... hmm... my hairstyle was quite erm... awkward at first... cos i wasn't used to it... but ltr it was better... :)... jas, wk n xav all got nice hairstyles... haha... n we went back to marina mandarin by mrt this time... since we figured tt we had quite ample time n we wanted to save some money...
3) back at the hotel rm... final touch-ups for the guys n we went to outside the gals rm to wait for the gals... n wow... i must say tt the gals looked really quite different... n surely better... haha... for guys we looked almost the same... haha... n thus began our "the blind lead the blind" hike to ritz carlton... haha... cos no one was very sure how to go... so we kinda bumped arnd... n i guess a lot of pple were very amazed at this parade of abt 20 pple dressed in coats n gowns walkin along the road at marina sq... haha... but anyway... we found our way there... time was abt 7.30pm...
4) as expected... prom hasn't started... so we began a mad rush of photograph-takin... i embarked on my mission to take a personal pic wif every1... n i must say tt it was 80% complete by the time i entered the ballrm... haha... really thx to all who shang lian take photo wif me... :)
5) ok... prom started proper... but amidst all the socialisin wif every1... its evident tt the mc needed quite gd programmes to capture our attention... there were some nice programmes lah... haha... quite funny also... the food... erm... not worth it... servin was quite small n quality not very gd also... but the atmosphere was nice... met some old frens... n some mere acquaintances... but its like we will stare at each other for a while... den suddenly go over n take photos tho i mite not really noe tt person very well... hahah... had quite a gd time socialisin arnd... found all the pple tt i want to find... :)... n the video the council made for us was so memorable n brought back a lot of fond memories... thx fy for contributin our photos n tt's y we can c our own photos in the video...
6) towards the ltr part of the event... 04S73 adjourned to the baby grand piano outside the ballrm n began playin some songs sooo familiar to us thru'out this 2 yrs... the different versions of "Happy Birthdays", some cranky songs... sch songs... haha... we enjoyed ourselves sooo much tt the councillors had to come n tell us to stop playin so moody songs... haha... den took out the candles on our tables for hooxy n jas to blow cos it was their bdays... haha... n we took quite a lot of class photos... or to be more exact... its the same photo taken usin many cameras... haha... poor councillors who had to take the photos for us... it was abt 10+ cameras... a lot of photo-snappin... hahahaha... but i guess tt's where the fun of prom is... :)
7) at abt 12am plus... went back to our hotel rms... where we sang n distributed bday presents to hooxy, jas, siyu n john... haha... its our last time we will be singin bday songs for them tgt... followin tt soon kueh had to leave cos he is goin NS the nxt day *all the best, soon kueh... take care in tekong*... n xav had to go for his trip as well... *enjoy hor... haha... * the gals went back to their respective rms to take a bath... but a prob arised: some1 forgot to take the rm keys... n the gals were literally locked out of the rm... so set, me, yunli n hooxy went down to the counter to get a replacement... will always rmb set's famous words: "this is the time to be a man" *cos the gals were all w/o their shoes... hooxy n yunli went wif us barefooted... :)*... after gettin our replacement key... we went out to the esplanade... merlion park... fullerton hotel for one full walk b4 returnin back to our hotel rms cos they were sooo tired... so after one round of bathin... those who dint hav beds to slp in gathered at the gallery to sit arnd n tolk... n one by one we all collapsed slpin as well... :)
8) finally comes the moment when we hav to start leavin... lt was the first... followed by the 2nd batch at abt 7am plus... we went over to suntec city to hav breakfast... where we cheated a bit for the Delifrance buffet *oops... :)*... den me, hooxy, erene n hailing left... n finally its back to home for more slpin to make up for the slp lost... haha... :)
dear frens in my JC life... be it pple in 04S73 or outside the class... im truly glad tt i hav this chance to get to noe every single one of u in my 2 yrs in JC... in many ways u all hav lit up my life here... really thx a lot... n i really hope tt u will treasure this frenship tt we hav established wif each other... juz as i will... do rmb to keep in touch n take care ok??? for the guys... jia you for NS in tekong... n for the gals... gd luck for ur future pursuits in universities...
P.S: thx for not lettin me leave wif a regret... tt's the best gift tt u can giv to me... wish u happiness n all the best!!! :)

Tagged!!!

2005-12-07T14:33:00.000-08:00

haha... ok... dis is really dumb... but since yunli tagged me... no harm playin as well... haha... here r the rules:
i've been TAGGED. so here goes! Rules of the game:1. Post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.2. At the end, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this, and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED!" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.

ok... now for 5 weird/random comments abt myself:
1) i hav this silly routine of eatin one noodle meal n one rice meal for lunch or dinner... tt means... if i eat noodles in the afternn... i will eat rice at nite... n vice versa...
2) i hope to be well-liked by every1... :)
3) im quite a lousy decision-maker... :S
4) i love to hear my frens tell me abt their probs... cos tt shows tt im some1 they can trust...
5) my frens tink im totally unromantic... haha... but i can be philosophical at times... :)

ok... so now my 5 targets will be (dependin on who has a tagboard) :
1) kaishi
2) hooxy
3) xavier
4) fangyi
5) irene

haha... hope these 5 pple will continue playin this game... n pls dun re-tag me hor... haha... :)
shun bian update a bit ba... oh... at present im wearin my new contact lenses juz acquired yday... hmm... so far so gd... tho im havin this little giddy feelin... guess mayb its cos im still not fully used to it ba... hope it will be better tml... haha... sigh... so much money spent for prom liao... to some extent... not really worth it... haha... since its only for 1 nite... but den again... its a once-in-a-lifetime thing... haha... well... wad's spent is spent... so i mite as well enjoy it... haha... :)

Updates...

2005-12-05T21:20:00.000-08:00

ok... cant really find an apt title for this entry... so shall juz label it as "updates"... today was quite tiring n fun but to some extent upsettin... shall elaborate y... morn woke up to argue wif my mum over smth... ok... halfway thru the argument i got a bit agitated n cried a bit... well... tt's the first time i cried again in front of others in like how many yrs... *i cried to myself once the other time... but tt's when i was abt to slp...*... tt's how bad the situation is like... but my parents went out tgt today... so hope tt things mite turn out a bit better... but anyway... the morn cryin kinda affected my voice... so when i went kbox wif ser today... was quite disappointed wif my singin... it was so far frm my best... sorry ser tt i cant sing well for our last kbox session today... but must say tt we really zhuan dao... cos our session is actually frm 11am to 2pm... but somehow they let us drag until 3.45pm!!!... wow... tt's abt 1h 45min... gd bargain... haha... :)... den after tt met xav n wk who happened to be in town to go shoppin arnd for their prom stuff as well as bday presents for the remainin nov n dec babies in 04S73... haha... xav managed to settle his... wk still searchin... for me... i got it ready abt a few days ago... but now i tink it mite be a bit too formal... sigh... nvm lah... cant fork out the money n energy to go shop for smth liao... mayb wad i will simply do on tt day itself is to style my hair n mayb wear contacts... prom to some extent is quite a waste of money actually... but anyway... juz hope tt the day will turn out well... :)

Damn it!!!

2005-12-04T19:20:00.000-08:00

ok... im super super pissed wif my parents now... for gdness sake... how can u blame us for tryin to get out of home???... u giv us this kind of stupid silly environment of quarrellin n wadever not... its super suffocatin to be in this environment... stupid stupid stupid... damn damn damn... wadever... i dun want to care liao... :S

2005-12-04T01:07:00.000-08:00

b4 our nitewalk on the first nite...

2005-12-04T01:06:00.001-08:00

guy power!!! :)

2005-12-04T01:06:00.000-08:00

me, cj n john forced to take a pic... :(... looks like we got a big bad bruise on our faces...

2005-12-04T01:04:00.000-08:00

post-sentimental activity photo-taking... the wonderful 04S73 family... too bad a few pple cant be there as well... or we can hav a complete class photo... :)

2005-12-04T01:03:00.001-08:00

the planners of the 2005 chalet: Xav, erene n myself... this is at the sentimental activity on the 2nd nite... we were supposed to share our tots one by one... haha...

2005-12-04T01:03:00.000-08:00

Pic taken wif barney during our downtown east nitewalk on the 1st nite... cant c my face n barney... haha... :)

2005-12-04T01:01:00.000-08:00

Our Dirty Feet after BBQ... nice hor??? :)

Nva want to be in another class again...

2005-12-03T10:10:00.000-08:00

haha... juz woke up frm a long long rest courtesy of the intense lack of slp over at the chalet... n feeling a bit empty cos chalet is over n the nxt thing to look forward to is prom on the 8 dec... n of course our hotel stay at 9 dec... tt will probably be our last chance to c each other b4 we seperate for a few mnths n meet again for our final time in March nxt yr... in my previous entry... i was too busy writing abt the class chalet account tt i forgot to write abt some sentiments tt i had for the class... so here's a sequel to the previous entry ba... been readin a few blogs n glad tt some pple revived their blogs... :)... do keep it there... the common theme noted across all the entries was tt we all agree tt we nva want to be in another class if given the chance... i tink i will agree wif tt... i seriously cant imagine how much fun i will lose out if i was to be in another class... no doubt... cliques do exist in the class... but i guess we r one of the few classes tt despite our cliques... we r still able to exist gd n well as a class... mayb tt was the "mega-clique" idea tt i was searchin for at the very beginnin of the first 2 yrs... this yr's class chalet proved tt we succeeded... haha... days fly by very fast... in a twinkling of an eye... 2 yrs of JC has passed by... like i was tellin Ms Wong tt day durin bbq... its juz like we had orientation yday... haha... n im serious... i can really vividly rmb the day when our class sat tgt in a circle on the hall stage.. strugglin to rmb the names of this grp of pple wif whom we will be spendin our nxt 2 yrs wif... n now... its almost time we r partin... n i really hope tt we will still hav many chances to c each other again nxt time... tho i agree tt it will be difficult cos every1 will be busy n some pple mite even be overseas studyin... but i hope tt we can make it a deal tt we will remain in contact... haha... i will try my best to... :)... so dear 04S73ians... im truly glad tt im in this class... n im proud of it... n i guess i will definitely echo the common sentiment: I WILL NVA WANT TO BE IN ANOTHER CLASS!!! :)

Class Chalet!!!

2005-12-02T23:01:00.000-08:00

haha... 04S73 had our 2005 chalet frm 30 Nov to 2 Dec... n im proud to say tt its a success!!!... really thx to all who turned up *which is the whole class*... haha... thx for makin it such a wonderful 3D2N for everyone else... hope it left a lot of wonderful memories for all u 04S73ians... rest assured tt it has definitely been so for me... haha... n as for the gifts tt me, erene n xav prepared for all of u... really hope tt u all will continue to treasure for the yrs to come... haha... ok... as usual... i will record down this meaningful time tgt as a report... so this entry will definitely be super long... so tt down the yrs... we can still look back at this entry n relish the moments... :)
30 Nov: well... the plannin grp met at 2pm at pasir ris mrt to settle the stuff tt we needed to buy for the chalet... which turned out to be quite a lot... inclusive of the bbq stuff n other miscellanous stuff... after tt... met the rest of the class at 4pm to take the shuttle service... but weisi was late... n in the end... the majority of the class went first... while me, erene n low low stayed behind to wait for weisi n take a cab there... haha... in the end we reached at abt the same time as the rest... :)... checked into the chalet n settled the slpin arrangements... haha... n b4 long... we were on our way to prepare dinner -- spaghetti!!!... but too many cooks spoiled the soup... n there was a bit of problems in the kitchen while the rest were playin mahjong n watchin tv out in the living rm... haha... but in the end... we managed to enjoy a gd spaghetti meal... must really thank all those who contributed to preparin this dinner... haha... :)... following tt... jas was very anxious to get his "KINKY NITE" started... haha... oh boy... the games were super fun... 1st game was the banana game... in which the gal has to take the banana n walk blindfolded to the guy to feed him... haha... some of the poor guys got a lot of banana smudged arnd their faces b4 they managed to eat the bananas... haha... the 2nd game was the 'groping game'... haha... which was also super funny... esp jas wif his weird poses... hahaha... den we played some mamasan game which was actually a mutated form of lao3 ying1 zhua1 xiao3 ji1... haha... there was a lot of shirt-pullin n rushin arnd... haha... set was totally robbed of his chicks!!!... hahahahah... damn funny... den after tt it was free n easy... first went out to the beach wif a few pple... den returned to chalet to join the guys in the rm playin some card games... n justin was complainin abt my LOTR poker cards... hahah... den joined the rest for a truth or dare game... haha... a lot of secrets were revealed wor!!!... too bad for those who slept... haha... :) den joined the gals to watch sunrise at the beach... but sadly... we faced the wrong direction... but we had a nice time singin songs... haha... :)
1 Dec: breakfast was Mcdonald's... the morn was quite eventful... cos a number of us went over to pasir ris beach to ride bicycle... haha... it was abt a 40min journey ba... n it rained halfway durin our walk there!!!... it became a mad rush for shelter... *erm... tt's more for me ba... the rest were happily strollin*... the rain subsided very soon... n we moved on wif our long walk to the park... where we played wif the "Teppanyaki Disc"... haha... it was super fun... n the guys were brawling at the centre of the disc courtesy of justin... haha... the gals dint dare to try brawling... so they juz sat at the periphery n turned the disc... den continued to ride our bicycles... n i realised how small pasir ris park is... cos we combed the entire place in like less than 1 hr... haha... nonetheless... returned to chalet after 4 hrs plus out to enjoy our nice "Golden Pillow" lunch... haha... shortly after... it was preparation for bbq... n for the sentimental activity tt we will be havin durin the bbq... but too bad the whole class cldn't stay... lt n siyu had to leave early... but anyway... the plan proceeded... n after ms wong arrived... we started our activity... each one had to find a card which bore the no. assigned to each person... haha... but there was a bit of misunderstandin... n pple started findin their own cards... haha... the thing was actually to find some1 else's card... but after tt was cleared... haha... the game prcoceeded as planned... n every1 sat back at the rm where there were the words "04S73" laid out on the floor usin tealights... haha... den each pair has to come up n exchange their comments for each other... haha... it was quite nice to hear some stuff n encouragements... hope tt this activity will leave a deep n pleasant memory for every1 there... followin tt was bbq n a lot of photo-takin... haha... den quite a no. of pple left... n we gave them each a class photo CD, a personal gift frm erene, me n xav as well as their card... really hope n glad tt they liked it... guess tt's the best reward for us... thx every1... tt event i will rmb for life... :)
2 Dec: well... not many were left by this day... n we juz hanged arnd at the chalet for a while b4 leavin... haha...
so this ends my account of the class chalet... hope tt all of u 04S73ians out there will take care of urselves n c ya at prom!!!... 04S73 forever!!! :)

2005-12-02T07:44:00.000-08:00

04S73 guys pic... lacking jas but got fy to take over him... :)

2005-12-02T07:41:00.000-08:00

04S73 light-up... nice hor??? hehe... :)

LIBERATION!!!

2005-11-28T23:15:00.000-08:00

haha... im so hyper now... cos im finally free frm the exams!!! :)... YEAH!!!... cant really find words to express myself... but im soooo happy... n coupled wif chalet comin up in 2 days time... hahaha... im juz sooo high!!!... haha... tho im sufferin frm a bit of sore throat frm 5 hrs of kboxin wif ks, minz n andy today... haha... but i will be fine for more singing n of course for eatin at chalet b4 i officially start on my exercise regime... haha... hooray!!!... hahaha... i noe tt i will enjoy myself lots... so to every1 now... ENJOY!!! :)

18 Hrs to Full LIBERATION!!!

2005-11-27T16:20:00.000-08:00

yay!!!... tho this sounds silly when every1 arnd me is celebratin the end of the A's liao... im proud to say tt i hav only 18 hrs left to be stuck in this "IM STILL HAVIN EXAM" mode!!! haha... 18 hrs seems so short... but den again... if 8 of it is to be spent slpin... haha... guess time will very soon pass ba... n i can go kbox wif ks n minz n andy liao... haha... after so loooong... haha... oh... den comin up very soon there's chalet on 30 Nov to 2 Dec... dear 04S73ians... can say tt u all will be in for a gd time... haha... temporary programs include a kinky nite organised by VERY kinky pple *which does not include me, erene n xav... i tink the 3 of us not kinky enuf*... hahaha... n there will be smth for every1... which the 3 of us spent like 7 plus hrs to do last sat... n we really hope tt u all will like n appreciate it... haha... but of course... there's goin to be no easy lunch... n smth has to be done b4 u all can get it... but i can tell u all tt u all will like tt activity very much... its after bbq anyway... so pple... pls stay for the 2nd nite at the VERY LEAST!!!... haha... n this time we will be preparin the bbq food ourselves... haha... it will be fun to hav the whole class marinatin food tgt... haha... :)... im also goin to get some gifts for some of my closer frens in class... n mayb a small letter or card to tell them abt wad i feel abt them for this past 2 yrs... haha... n oh yes... i must complain abt the photo tt we took tgt after bio mcq paper last thurs outside sch... the sill security guard dint check to ensure tt every1 was in the pic lah... in the end... poor me n low low were left out of the pic!!!... argh!!!... wad a waste... we mite nva hav such a chance again!!!... damn pissed wif the security guard!!!...

Sadz...

2005-11-24T13:31:00.000-08:00

sigh... while the rest of the 04S73ians r enjoyin themselves out at town now... me n soon kueh r mournin our sad fate on MSN of 2 more S papers more to go... the road to complete liberation seems so long... long until im quite sick n tired of it... :(... but no choice ba... so i hav to press on no matter wad... yup... to all those wif S papers... jia you!!!... oh... juz went to guitaryou website n found the chords n lyrics for shan hu hai frm jay chou... splendid song... tho its kinda sad... but its super tough to try to sing it... argh!!!...

2005-11-18T16:32:00.000-08:00

曾经交汇的直线，分开后，还能有交叉的一天吗？

Man of my word...

2005-11-17T10:25:00.000-08:00

haha... ok pple... i hereby declare tt im not truly a man of my word... y???... cos i said b4 in my previous entry tt i will not blog again until the end of my A levels...(which sadly is still 11 days away)... but i really cant stand it... days r super boring... stuck btw this dilemma: option 1- install my com game on the com n play it... option 2- take out my bio notes to mug... the trouble wif option 1 is tt im afriad tt i will lose my drive completely b4 the end of my exams... which isnt too gd... n the prob wif option 2 is tt well... its juz so sian... silly timetabling... i figured tt i waste more time waitin in btw exams den doin the exams itself... if they were to pack the papers a LITTLE bit more closely... boy... i will finish my papers like mid nxt wk... or mayb even nxt monday... but the truth is tt i hav 2 days break in btw my bio papers 3 and 1... wah... so dumb... but nvm... i understand tt the MOE has its ku zhong... haha... ok... my comments for this yr's papers: tough, weird n disappointin... disappointin refers to myself... not the papers... haha... how can tough papers be disappointing???... chem was bad, maths was bad, bio was not too gd... n physics is totally screwed... *oh... realised tt it rhymes somehow*... haha... but i guess i've very much sharpened my skill to ignore wad's past... yup... now i absolutely dun care abt wad results i will get for the papers tt hav passed... i juz hope to do ok for the rest... yup... haha... so for all those who r still in the midst of fightin there... jia you!!!... guess apart frm the econs s paper students whose last paper is on 29th nov... no one can complain abt the length of time they r frm full liberation... MINE IS ON THE 28TH LAH!!!...
oh... post A levels plans n my timetable... here's a brief summary...
28th nov: kbox outin wif ks, minz n andy... oh... interestin... haha...
30th nov - 2nd dec: class chalet at loyang!!! hooray!!!... our last class chalet liao... must look forward to it!!!
5th dec: outing wif my god-sis ser... most prob kbox again... haha...
8th dec - 9th dec: prom nite plus stayover at hotel rm in Marina Mandarin *ok... peeps... for the 15 of us who r stayin over rite... the cost is abt 21 bucks per person... so pls confirm wif us ur stay on fri n try to bring the money nxt wk... cos fy wants us to settle it soon... yup*
15th - 17th dec: ooo... church youth camp... haha... :)
19th - 23rd dec: family holiday trip to malaysia...
hmm... n apart frm tt... the nxt big event will be like my NS enlistment liao... 6th jan... haha... realised tt quite a no. of my frens also goin in on tt day... so mayb we can c each other again... haha... ok... back to muggin mode liao... jia you every1!!! :)

A cauldron of feelings...

2005-11-11T23:07:00.000-08:00

ok... i dun noe how to describe my mood now... juz one word: its totally screwed!!!... so pls put up wif my lao sao for this entry... not too much worth reading... but i juz tink tt if i cont to bottle everythin up in me... i will soon explode... n im not jokin... yup... tt's the seriousness of the thing now... :( firstly im super pissed... cos im grounded for some stupid reason... oh come true wif it... u juz want me to stay at home... wad shit... crap crap crap... u expect me to giv a reason for goin out to study... well... den y dun u tell me a reason y i shld stay at home to study lah!!!... :(... absolutely dumb... totally pissed my mood off... secondly... argh... well... some things r backslidin again... juz when i tot things r takin a turn for the better... i dun wish to blame any1... cos i also dun noe if i m rite to feel this way anyway... frankly, im confused... n tt's it... n it really struck me hard durin my maths paper 2... my mood when i took the paper was absolutely horrible... cos the morn wasn't too gd for me... yar... i mite not show it... but it really took its toll on me... sigh... im so useless... :(... ok... after ventin everythin out im feelin better liao... dear readers r highly advised to skip this entry... yup... i noe it wont make sense at all...

Jia You, Peeps!!! :)

2005-11-05T13:42:00.000-08:00

ok... this shld be one of the very last posts b4 my a levels start... n here... i wld like to wish all my peers all the best for their respective exams... guess the most impt thing now is to keep ur morale high... yup... cos only when ur morale is high can u keep up the fightin spirit... if u feel ur morale is low... juz take a break frm ur intense preparations n take a deep breathe... relax... haha... this is my one of my mi jue orh *as if its worth a lot*... haha... but i wont allow my morale to be low... so dear frens... u all must also keep it high, ok??? :)... n for those goin thru hard times wif anything... dun keep it to urself... share wif the rest... share wif me!!! haha... actually... juz nd to share wif some1 u can really trust... n tt person may not necessarily be me... but it doesn't matter... haha... juz make sure tt ur psychological n emotional aspects are "Operational Ready" mode can liao... n do look forward to post a levels... oh... i alr hav a few grps of pple i want to go k-ing wif liao... haha... *aiyoh... so sinful to tink abt playin now...*... i appear very high hor???... haha... but i juz tot tt its my responsibility as a fren (even if not a gd fren) to write smth which is encouragin for u all... so tt we can brave this exams tgt... yup... so as i end off... juz wanna say to all my frens out there: JIA YOU!!! :)

Persevere on!!!

2005-11-02T13:10:00.000-08:00

wah... cant believe tt my first a level paper is startin in 6 days time... can still rmb abt 1 mnth ago... A levels seem soooo far... but now... its juz 6 days away... a quick report on my Operational status now... erm... im feelin quite gd to some extent... n of course feelin quite stressed as well... feelin stressed is a duh qn... feelin gd is cos of some gd things which happened... n juz a word of assurance to all the poor j2s out there... A levels is definitely goin to juz breeze thru... so do "enjoy" ur muggin now... haha... hope tt dint sound too cocky... it wasnt intended to... *ba... yue miao yue hei*... wont tolk abt tt liao... y m i here???... well... i hav been MIA for like the past few days... so tot i will juz come n update my blog somehow... in case pple read n realise tt i havent updated it for eons... hahaha... so if u r readin this... im ALIVE!!!... haha... ok... turnin a bit crazy liao... must hav been the effect of too much maths... which will be my main focus this wk... ok... gtg back to studyin liao... once again... to all my dear j2 peers... JIA YOU!!!... :)

Be strong...

2005-10-29T12:30:00.000-07:00

heard abt some bad news... wont say wad it is... but to my dear fren concerned... if u r readin this... be strong... i believe u can do it... n if u nd any help... juz feel free to find me... i will try my best to help u... cos it has always been tt u were there for me but i feel like im not doin enuf as a fren for u... yup... :)... i really hope to c the old smiley u again...
these few days hav been marked by incessant muggin... studied wif minz n ks on wed... it was quite a last min decision... haha... so we juz occupied one bench at the coffee bean... where i felt tt i was too soft-eared... cos i was supposed to buy a cup of coffee in order for the 3 of us to "rightfully" remain there... den i told myself tt i will buy the cheapest one... which was 3 bucks plus... but the salesgal told me tt:" oh... tt cup is very small. Would u like to change to a bigger one like espresso or cappucino???"... n i juz said im fine wif it... n the price went up to abt 4 bucks plus... considerin tt i most prob wont hav any income for these 2 mnths... its quite a lot i had to part wif... but anyway... the 2 ladies dint drink cappucino... so i had the cup all to myself... muahaha... :)... n we crapped quite a bit abt all kinds of stuff... yup... fun... n i actually managed to finish tryin chem MCQ for like 7 topics... wow... impressed wif myself... hehe...
thurs went out wif pl, lt, txy, yl n pl's fren to woodlands' lib to mug... haha... at first when we first arrived at the lib... i tot tt wad they described to me as a mad man's race when the lib opened was untrue... cos the no. of pple there were like so small... haha... but 10 min ltr... i took back my words... pple were pourin in in hordes... haha... ok... so there was indeed a mad rush for tables the moment the gate opened... n 1 guy was so kancheong tt he knocked down an exhibit... dotz... courtesy of me... we found a nice table where we settled there to mug for like 10 to 5.30 (for me lah... the rest even longer...)... haha... quite efficient... i finished almost all the MCQ in the chem TYS... plus read up on a bit of bio... :)... overall, my progress is still smooth but a bit worryin... cos i realised tt i forgot quite some stuff i juz studied b4... oops... haha... prob means i hav to re-read... :(

Life is truly precious...

2005-10-26T23:06:00.000-07:00

hmm... attended my uncle's cremation session today... it was quite a sad scene tt i was in... the whole atmosphere was really filled wif sadness... esp when i saw the family say their last gdbyes to the deceased... i really cried... i really did... frankly... im not very close to this uncle... since i barely c him more than twice a yr... but the whole atmosphere simply makes u unable to resist cryin when u c the sadness of the family members n frens... n my uncle's frens played guang liang's "tong hua"... the moment i heard the openin chords... i really cldn't stand it... tears juz started flowin out... :(... i guess the take-away tt i got was really to treasure life... cos one day u mite juz be gone like tt... yup... its truly saddenin but at the same time it sets u tinkin... tinkin abt really wad r the things tt u will treasure in life... hope tt all who read this will really learn to treasure ur life... n those who hav crossed ur paths... cos every single one of them has a lesson for u to learn... :)

Anti-socialism...

2005-10-24T23:02:00.000-07:00

hmm... m i turnin anti-social???... hope not... but recently im kinda displayin signs of anti-socialism... tend to be doin my own stuff... tend to want to spend time alone... tend to remain extra quiet when other pple r tolkin... at most giv a smile or nod to show tt im kinda listenin... when i may actually not be... ok... i tried to find a few reasons for tt... mayb first thing is cos im tired... so i tend to stone... another thing is tt i hav nth to say or comment... which is smtimes quite the case... cos i realised tt if u dun want to hav the feelin tt pple dun listen to wad u say... the best thing is to shut up... so the lesson tt i hav to learn is tt i got to be more frenly???... perhaps... c how first ba...

Song-recording...

2005-10-22T19:04:00.000-07:00

hmm... went for song-recordin session today... n it lasted for the entire day... well... almost lah... i reached admiralty *the meetin pt* at 9am courtesy of my dad fetchin me... n den tried to mug while standin beside the ticketin machine... guess i looked quite silly standin there wif my guitar beside me... but anyway... yup... the experience was gd but extremely draining... both pieces by our class were recorded... so tt means wx, txy, lt n me were there... haha... wx n lt's song took the longest time... cos wx was quite ambitious n wanted to add quite a lot of stuff... haha... so poor lt was terribly confused by her... haha... contrastingly... me n txy's song was quite fast... mayb cos ours was also simpler ba... only 1 guitar accompaniment wif singing... yup... tot our recorded song was quite nice... haha... its a gd experience lah, as i said... n i tink i finally realise y the pop singers regard it as an achievement if they managed to record like 5 or 6 songs in a day... its REALLY not easy... haha... :)
P.S: really thx for all the efforts u hav put in... it really solved a lot of issues tt i had been tinkin abt... n may we juz remain frens forever n ever... hah... yup... tt's my little wish...:)

Hmm...

2005-10-20T13:48:00.000-07:00

takin a small break now after finishin my lunch.. haha... progress for muggin is erm... slow but still ok... actually i feel tt a lot of times im readin for the sake of readin thru... after i close my notes... i tink back n discover tt wad i supposedly "understood" more was simply wad i had alr understood some time ago... dotz... ineffective studyin... :(... haha... well... i hope to do better in the afternn... heard this super touchin story over the radio smtime ago... *ever since my bro changed his hp... i hav been kopin it to listen to the radio everyday...*... it tells of this father n mother who were expectin a child who was eventually proved unviable... but luckily tt child was actually one of a twin... so they still had one child in the end... but the story was really touchin... n the stupid gynae who apparently dint do a proper pre-natal scan... ba... i shall resolve nva to be one of those if i ever do become a gynae... haha... :)... spent some time reconsiderin my university course option... tried to convince myself tt i was suitable n i wanted to enter med... well... results of tt r quite satisfactory... so i hope i can n will press on... yup... :)... n had my mini-k session yday nite wif my 2nd wife... its a great stress-reliever... tho i dun profess to sing very well... but my 2nd wife was gd n she gave me perfect accompaniment... helped me put a lot of feelings into the songs which i was singing... n wif her help... managed to come up wif some more chords progressions for some other songs... i juz love her lah... nth else to say... :)... she is some1 *or rather, smthing* who formed a part of such wonderful memories... haha... as for my first wife... im sorry to neglect her now... but apparently she doesn't thrill me anymore... i juz get more n more disappointed when im wif her... sigh... mayb durin the hols i shall try to make myself feel passionate abt her again... i hope so... or else it will be such a waste of my efforts for yrs... :)
wah... realised tt i really crapped a lot... haha... cant help it lah... im a natural crapper... :)... but of course... i can be serious when i want to... haha... tt's wad so many pple tink of me initially... but pple who noe me well enuf will noe tt im far frm tt under normal circumstances... haha... ok... to all the j2s out there... mug hard n score well for ur A levels, yar??? dun giv up n we can look forward to our enjoyment time *which isn't very long for me after all*... 18 days more to start of A levels... 38 days more to end of A levels for me... gambatte!!! :)

Some things really do matter after all...

2005-10-18T22:32:00.000-07:00

haha... ok... im back after quite some time... its 18 Oct today... n my com is still quite unstable... argh!!!... hope it doesn't fail me again soon... :)... so much to blog abt... so bear wif me...
ok... for sunday first... oh... so proud tt finally minz, ks n me managed to really stay back n mug for once!!!... haha... usually its always one of us will pangseh the other 2... but this time we dint... n we had a jolly gd time laughin n chattin... esp abt some stuff which i tink i had better not reveal... haha... but my dad forgot to fetch me n i waited silly... while in the meantime... the 3 of us got hungry n thirsty n even wanted to resort to stealin stuff... stealin stuff in church... wow... tt's quite a big sin neh... n for drinks we had a miserable 2 cans of chrysanthemum which we managed to buy after emptyin our pockets... haha... but it was really funny... hope to hav more of such sessions!!! :)... n i received a call frm some1 whom i havent been speakin to for quite long liao... yup... glad tt all's fine now... thx for makin tt call... :)
ok... monday was quite uneventful... as for today... im juz home frm a talk at NUS abt med fac admissions which i attended wif my er jie... hmm... benefitted a lot... tho a lot of funny things happened along the way on our journey... n i actually took the wrong bus!!!... dotz... n we wasted like half n hr waitin for the bus to complete its loop... sigh... im losin all faith in my orienteerin skills now... :(... n at the talk... there was this man beside me who was a bit erm... strange... he copied down every single thing which the prof said... regardless of its relevance... n also asked a few weird qns as well... n he also asked me abt my enlistment date n took tt down as well!!!... ok... my conclusions r these: he's either an undercover frm the med fac... or else he's tryin to source out competitors for his son... wah... zhi ji zhi bi, bai zhan bai sheng... ok... but if he's the latter... there's no such nd for tt lah... hahaha... i'm "harmless", u noe... :)... if any of the class pple want to noe more abt the admissions stuff... can ask me... haha...
hmm... for those who dun noe yet... im goin into tekong on 6 jan nxt yr... tt means i hav abt 1 mnth plus to enjoy n train up for it... wish me gd luck... haha... :)... ok... will end here liao... till den... all the j2s must JIA YOU!!! :) cheers!!!

2005-10-15T12:30:00.000-07:00

hmm... was contemplatin if i shld do a short write-up on my comments for a few of my more close frens in class... on 2nd tots... better not... haha... cos if i write anythin wrong or funny... its gonna be bad... haha... but i guess i wrote down quite some stuff in the class photo autograph bk liao... so yup... for those who passed it to me i tried my best to write down as much as i can... if u dint... n u still wish to hear my comments... there's still chalet n prom... :)... n the prom hotel rm bookin is givin a bit of headache... the council dint check out the rates properly b4 releasin it to us... apparently the rate they gave us on the prom board were wif other packages... like some SIA travel package or such... n the actual price is quite a bit higher than the quoted ones... so hav to c if the class is goin to be willing to pay... or we can juz downgrade to another hotel... argh!!! hope to solve tt too... n the special programme tt we r plannin for chalet has been disturbed cos of the photograph autographs' thingy... but nvm... we will come up wif a new one soon... haha... :)... but which means tt xav n erene hav to get busy after 24th Nov liao... since i end only on the 28th n can only go shoppin for chalet stuff on 29th... haha... oh... n im findin it damn hard to repress my desire to go kbox again soon... cos by rite... im not supposed to until after exams... sigh... i still want to flush out my jj songs... the other time we went to sing wasn't shuang enuf... haha... *gosh... wad m i sayin???*... haha... sorry for the incoherence... hmm... glad tt some of the 04S73ians replied to my msg to them... haha... its truly touchin n heart-warmin to c the msgs... thx pple... :)

Last Day of JC Life...

2005-10-14T22:24:00.000-07:00

tian sa wu bu san zhi yan xi... today is the last day in which 04S73 will sit tgt as a class attendin any lectures or sessions tgt... n wif the ringin of the 4pm sch bell today... my JC life can be said to hav come to a close... 2 yrs of fun, laughter, tears n sweat hav come to an end... but today i dint cry... surely i felt tt tinge of sadness... a tinge of she bu de... but immersin myself in the last moments of time tt we hav as a class was too enjoyable n fun for me to tink abt tt sadness... n somehow today i felt tt the class was slightly more united... n the overall atmosphere was one of friendliness... glad tt all ended on a nice note... shall note down some pts abt the happenings of this memorable day... believe me... this will be a long entry... :)
1) had our final morning assembly... haha... its the last time when we can fight to stand at the last positions near the flag... 04S73ians r juz so attracted to the flag poles... haha... :)
2) went to the audi for a principal's address... watched a video capturin some of our wonderful times n memories in JC... frankly... i NEARLY cried a bit... cos the things in tt video were so familiar n contained so much of our memories... n the sheer tot of not being able to experience those again juz kinda made me feel very sad... haha...
3) had our really LAST CT session wif beng beng... received our class photos n passed them arnd to get pple to sign n write down their comments... hmm... i regret tellin pple to sign... cos in the end i realised tt it was more worthwhile to get pple to write comments for me rather than juz to sign... but well... haha... n i also had a gd time writin for others... its great to c tt every1 is writing so feveriously for other pple... haha... n of course... we celebrated wk's bday wif a nice choc cake... n settled upon our prom hotel bookings... the support for the hotel bookings were very gd... 15 out of 20 goin said tt they r interested to bk a rm... haha... thx for the support... :)
4) chem S session followed by bio lect... poor ms wong durin bio lect... cos every1 was so busy writin stuff on autograph bks n such tt i tink hardly any1 was listenin to her... haha... myself included... ;)... den it was off for our class dinner at swensens' at PS... oh my... it was so super crappy... tolked abt all kinds of stuff... tho the main conversation towards the end was abt prom dressin... which erm... i dun profess to be gd at or wad... so i took the role of a listener... haha... while listenin to the gals planning wad they want to wear... on tt day den c ba... haha... mayb some pple will surprise us... who knows??? :)
5) loitered arnd at PS wif fy, erene, yw, cj n john to do some window-shoppin... for the gals lah... the 3 guys juz tagged along n had fun tryin to pass static electricity to yw... haha... poor yw was so frightened of us... :)... but went home very soon after... since there was nth much there anyway... exchanged some tots abt the class wif erene on the mrt... n 1 thing i felt was a great pity was tt i only got closer to some of the guys durin the last few wks of sch... when we had our long breaks spent in the library muggin tgt... n of course not forgettin our all-time fav pastime of crappin n eatin tgt... n it had to end so soon... :(
i'm truly glad tt this day ended on a high note... n the warmth of the class which i tink has disappeared for quite some time came back again today... the closeness of the pple despite being in various cliques... yup... finally today i saw the 04S73 which i loved so much... n im sure it will leave wonderful memories for every1... juz as it did for me... we still hav a long long way to go to pursue our dreams... but im forever thankful tt at a pt in time... i had the privilege to be part of this wonderful class... to go thru so much wif the other 25 04S73ians... n i seriously hope tt we can still keep in touch... yup... as the asst CT rep... wld like to thank all of u for ur support towards erene, xav n myself when we try to organise stuff for u guys... oh... n do look forward towards chalet... haha... cos i noe tt it will definitely be a very meaningful one... :) take care guys!!! n till 8th Nov... do mug hard n chiong for the last lap!!! cheers!!!

tryin hard???...

2005-10-13T15:09:00.000-07:00

hmm... smtimes i tink back upon wad i hav done so far wif my life... *or rather... these few yrs lah, to be more exact...*... n i m tremendously surprised n shocked at how some things in my life has turned out for me... i hav drawn close to some pple... lost touch wif some pple... alienated some pple... n to some extent... i dun deny tt i hav taken to hate some pple b4... tho tt feelin is more or less gone now... not becos the situation improved... but rather... its cos im immune to tt feelin liao... smtimes its a disappointment wif myself over how i handle things... wad happened to all the promises i made to these pple???... smtimes tinkin abt it makes me feel like some silly little hypocrite who simply makes promises and destroys them in such a cruel way tt i wonder if its actually me doin it... seekin their forgiveness is like so hard becos if u simply dun speak to tt person... where in the world do u seek forgiveness frm???... so the natural thing *but not very sure if its the rite thing* to do will be to avoid... avoid the problem... avoid each other... treat tt person as if he/she doesn't exist at all... haha... mayb ignorin is a form of emotional abuse to the other party... n if tt's the case... i must say tt im a big stupid abuser... for i hav done such a cruel act to a few pple b4... its my fault to begin wif... n if those few pple r ever goin to read this... im truly sorry... :(
but of course... some positive things also happened durin these last few wks... for one... i've drawn much closer to some of the guys in class... as well as some other pple... which is gd, i tink... its super tirin havin to tink tt ur world is actually so small... when it isn't really... haha... mayb ultimately... im not the type who can hav a lot of gd frens... but rather the type tt only wishes to hav a few close frens n develop a very strong frenship wif them... mayb tt's one take-away tt i get abt myself... :)
P.S: im glad tt u hav tried to some extent... but im juz sorry tt i cant pass my own barrier... yup... juz hope tt time will slowly erode it away...

M I Supposed to be here???!!!

2005-10-11T16:09:00.000-07:00

haha... well... my entry title this time is to serve to remind me nxt time when i come to read blogs tt:"hey... u hav a lot of stuff undone yet... u shldn't be spendin time like this..."... ok... but i tink tt wif my character... i wont be bothered wif this title after i've posted it up... yar... such r the tots of a j2 slacker... :)
suddenly had the urge to blog... cos im waitin for the clock to strike 4 b4 i officially launch myself to doin a silly chem paper 3... piled up wif hmwk recently... but i must say tt my life now is really much much better than wad it was like a few mnths back... not in the hmwk sense... but den... erm... if u know it, u do... if u dont... well... dun nd to probe... juz noe tt im doin well... haha... things smtimes is juz a matter of gettin used to smth... once u hav gotten into tt phase... well... some things miraculously dun bother u as much as they did last time... :)
sigh... today is tue... n i hav only 3 more days left wif my wonderful class of 04S73... had prata wif wk n mz today after phy remedial... n lookin at our juniors at the FOS really brought back lots of memories for us, i guess... the carefree life... will be preparin smth for every1... hope tt they will like it... esp when i guess i will complete it wif quite some effort n tots... haha... c first ba... cos my exams end on 28th Nov... n the class chalet is on 30th Nov... so tt means i hav quite little time to prepare stuff... but i will rush it out anyway... haha... :)
let me pen down some things i will miss after the end of jc:
1) the ever-so-wonderful laughter n voices of pple in the class... when we do smth silly... when we make fun of teachers... when we crack some extremely lame n stupid jokes... n last of all... when we rethink back on our experiences n laugh at it... :)
2) the "family feelin" tt i used to feel in j1... tho i tink tt feelin has sort of disappeared strangely after j2... *well... guess its cos every1 has truly settled down into their respective positions n niches le ba*... but tt was the feelin tt made me fall in love wif the class n for once in my life... i hated the approach of wkends... n simply loved mondays... haha...
3) the teachers who hav taught us for these 2 yrs... n some of them r leavin... wish them all the best in their future as well... :)
4) to my guitar mates... the times we spent in the extremely cold LTs practisin till our fingers hurt like crazy... n our achievements... haha... :)
5) to my mini-family in sch... *this applies to u if u tink u r one of my family*... haha... tho we mite not hav kept in touch very often... but i truly thank each one of u for the impact u hav had in my life... haha... yup...
n wif this... i end this entry... cos its past 4pm liao!!! shux!!!... haha... take care to all... n jia you!!!

I'm Back...

2005-10-10T18:37:00.000-07:00

hooray!!!... im finally able to blog again after so many days of the com being down... tho this new com still gives a bit of problems... but nvm... n i realised tt days w/o computers r not so hard to live by after all... haha... juz some musings... :)
oh... received a small letter frm my er jie tt day... it was very nice to be rmbed by pple n to noe tt i had such an impact on some1 else's life... n esp since this is really goin to be the final wk of jc liao... i truly wonder how many pple will rmb me... or whether i will rmb pple... well... i guess i will... esp those who hav made an impact in my life in wadever way... but well... haha... :)

Ubin Outing...

2005-09-29T22:43:00.000-07:00

erm... finally able to blog liao... dun noe wad was wrong in the afternn... but anyway... 9 pple turned up for the ubin trip today... haha... deserve mention in this entry: yw, cj, wk, jy, wx, set, jas, soon kueh n me... not too bad a grp size after all, we realised... yup... n for the benefit of those who dint go today *it was such a pity*... i shall giv a write-up on wad happened today:
1) met at tanah merah mrt station... haha... surprisingly... jas wasn't the latest to arrive as i predicted... tho strictly speakin he was one of the last lah... haha... n of course... set dint fail to surprise us wif his branded HUGO BOSS bag n sleeveless shirt... haha... cool... :)
2) boarded bus to travel to changi beach... ok... the bus was super crowded... n we waited quite long for it anyway... so after like 30min bus journey we finally arrived at changi village... where we had a quick breakfast of nasi lemak for the guys... haha... n we were on our way to the jetty...
3) ferry, or rather, bumboat trip took abt 10min or so... the engine was so nosiy tt we had to raise our voices when speakin to each other even tho we were less than 2m apart frm each other... coated ourselves wif our armour: insect repellant... n it was quite an experience...
4) reached ubin... hired 9 suspension bikes for 7 bucks each for the whole day... quite a gd deal lah... tho the auntie refused to cut the price any further... den had a gd time tryin to teach the gals how to use the gears... *actually... i also juz learned today... but i guess i faked it off quite well???* haha... n wif tt... we set off on our bicycle journey proper... :)
5) erm... due to limited memory space... i cant rmb exactly where we went in detail... so i shall jus mention abt the more significant places... ok... we went to the beach where i tink the class pple went the last time as well... took a few pics there... n had a great time crappin abt how a particular chinese man went into the toilet n turned out to be an Indian cleaner... haha... *well... the truth is tt he left lah... but we dint c him go...*... after much bustling arnd... we finally took our photos... den headed off to a nearby hut to buy drinks... n i saw my first wild boar there... wah... it is quite huge sia... haha... ;)... wif regards to the concern tt our bikes might get stolen... quotin jas: " well... its not our i/c anyway..." *wx used her i/c to rent the bikes for us... so if anythin goes wrong... well... wx is responsible...* haha... we r soooo evil!!!
6) cycled to a construction site... realised tt we cant go any further n decided to turn back... the rest sped very fast... n yw was laggin behind... oops... n she fell... but luckily it wasn't serious... but wad happened was tt the two of us got lost frm the big grp... n upon returnin to the cross-road... decided to take a risk n go the path which we tot the rest will go... but after goin along tt path for some time... realised smth amiss... cos by now the big grp shld hav realised tt we were missin... n accordin to wad they shld hav done... cj shld well be on his way to look for us... but he wasn't... so we headed back to the cross-roads... where cj came along quite soon... n told us tt we were actually on the rite path... argh!!! if we had gone on further... we wld hav seen the rest... haha... so we took a lot of yuan wang lu... attempted to climb up a steep uphill slope followed by a downhill which totally felt like a roller-coaster ride... haha... :)
7) decided to hike up to the quarry top... at first we were worried tt we will be lost... so yw drew some "muah chee" stuff on the leaves as we walked along... in the end... the hike was a very short one... but the view we had of the quarry was awesome... the lake was very blue... n the whole picture was juz so... haha... erm... lost for words... haha... but we took pics there as well... haha...
8) erm... realised tt part 7 is b4 the part where the missing in action episode took place... but nvm lah... things r not in chronological order here... :) after reachin the thai temple... decided to take a trek deep into the forest to c where it wld lead us to... along the way... commented abt how mosquitoes can easily breed in the numerous puddles of water there... yup... n wif the recent Dengue fever scare... this is absolutely not tolerable!!!... haha... but anyway... we dint manage to trek to the end... cos it was startin to rain n we cld c no end to the trek as yet... n set was moanin abt how hungry he was... haha...
9) chionged back to the jetty... where we had our lunch at the seafood restaurant there... n had a gd time crappin abt a lot of cu su stuff... n of course... watchin 3 cats do their "threesome" act... hahaha... super funny... guess we were most prob the most noisy grp there... hahaha... yup... followin tt was home cos we really dint hav much energy left to continue our exploration... :)... my overall comments for the outin was it was really fruitful n fun... those who dint join us really missed out quite some fun lor... hahaha... ok... shall sign off here... :)

Myth...

2005-09-24T20:03:00.000-07:00

haha... went out wif irene n gl today... went kbox first... where i seriously tink we got shortchanged for the fact tt we dint make a reservation b4 hand... so our time was only frm 11 to 1 instead of 11 to 2... n we got chased out lor... quite sao xing... haha... but nvm... the singin session was super funny also... got to sing songs of different eras... haha... n first time i heard my da jie n er jie's voices thru the mike... hahaha... but it was quite nice... so must train up some more... :)... den after tt went to watch jackie chan's "the myth"... quite a nice show... funny at some scenes as well... haha... strongly recommended for u pple to watch... haha... :)... yup... im thoroughly enjoyin my wkend break... haha... n oh yes... 04S73ians... do be enthu for the ubin trip organised by jas leh... haha... i tink i will be goin... n dun let it end up wif only a few pple only... yup... to all: enjoy!!! :)

Hooray!!!

2005-09-21T14:50:00.000-07:00

haha... my prelims r pseudo-over... tt means... officially... i still hav bio s tml... but deep down... ba... who cares man???... they r not markin it anyway... haha... so my mood is tt of a person who has finished the very last hc papers he will ever be doin in his jc life... went out wif the phy pple after paper today to NYDC at wheelock place to eat... haha... super hilarious time we had there... n i've noticed the benefits of sittin in the middle of the grp... so tt u can listen to both conversations goin on at either side n decide which side u want to tolk in... haha... hmm... but it was quite ex tho... i paid like 11+ bucks for my hawaiian pasta... which was quite ok lah... soon kueh n low low were unsatisfied wif their food... esp low low... he kept mumbling:" not nice one" while he was eatin... haha... den it was crazy convo time... tolked n crapped n laughed until my tears nearly came out... haha... i juz love it when 04S73ians crowd tgt in one table n start crappin... it always nva fails to make me laugh n laugh... tho i smtimes remain quite quiet... but den... haha... its juz so super funny!!!... ok... now for my post-prelim plans...
1) shall slp enuf to make up for all the lost slp time due to anxiety over the exam the nxt day... which was quite serious smtimes...
2) watch a movie... or go kbox... either one *cos i dun hav enuf money liao*... n i've recently found myself quite crazy over JJ lin jun jie's songs... now got one more additional fav to my list: hai4 pa4... quite an old song... but nonetheless... its still nice... :)
basically... i will be rottin till tue... where i will start my muggin mode again... n try to do up the bio revision papers... argh!!!... yup... but until den... haha... it shall be slack slack slack for me... :)... to all those who hav finished their papers... its been a tough battle... but we hav survived it... to those who still hav papers... jia you!!!... i will be waitin for u at the end of the battle... haha... yup... ;)

Mayb its time to change ur perspectives...

2005-09-19T13:40:00.000-07:00

hmm... in the midst of all the exam stress n strife... i m here for a short while typin a small entry on a small blog tt exists in the wide wide world of the INTERNET... ok... sounds crappy... haha... but its juz tt i hav some tots which i tink i shld write down... it shld apply to some pple... since i only got those tots after readin some blogs... but den again... no one is obliged to take note of wad i say... :)... i guess sometimes things r not abt reciprocation *hope i spelt it rite... i always hav prob wif this word*... tt's a hard fact tt i told myself like how many moons ago... but im still strugglin to accept it... pple do tire when they r tryin to maintain relationships, frenships or wadever not... frustration sets in... partly becos we tink tt the other party is simply not interested, so y r we makin ourselves appear like silly little fools tryin so hard to show our concern only to c it end in apparent futility???... but den... to put in another way... when u first agreed to be his/her fren... its equivalent to signin a life-time agreement tt u will nva fail him/her as n when they nd u... tt's the promise of frenship to me... whether others can or bother to keep it or not is not my business... wad matters is tt im able to keep tt promise... so i guess its a change of perspective... look on the side of the other person sometimes... mayb they do not hav such an intention or did not intend to make u feel tt way... cos every action or gesture can yield a thousand interpretations... well... be sad abt it at first... den laugh it out n forget abt such issues n move on... its totally meaningless to ponder or tink abt it... simply cos no matter how much u tink... things wont change until u do smth abt it... yup... juz some random tots... sorry if it doesn't appear too coherent... :)... to all out there slayin the "exam demons" on the battlefield... gambatte!!!... the war will soon be over!!! :)

2005-09-15T21:43:00.000-07:00

nva underestimate ur impact on another person... u nva noe how affected pple can be by the things tt u do... :(

Beaten, but definitely not down...

2005-09-13T13:07:00.000-07:00

ok... today's chem paper was really bad... as usual... i panicked... n after tt... it was juz terrible... but as my entry title says... i will not be defeated by this... there's still paper 1 n 2 to bia for... tt's the optimistic view tt i guess will be able to support me on for the rest of this prelims... yup... jia you every1!!!
P.S: im glad for today... i hope things will get better... thx... :)

MAF 2005...

2005-09-10T23:31:00.000-07:00

jus back frm MAF in sch... glad to say tt 20 out of 26 pple in our class turned up... tho not all were wif us... but its a gd sign... n guess every1 enjoyed it... esp wif crazy pple like jas comin up wif all sorts of funny ideas... haha... shall giv a brief update on wad went on for us:
1) met up wif jas, mz, set n xav for dinner at prince cafe... crapped quite a lot abt some mooncake n stuff over dinner... n we really finished it very fast... well... guess tt's wad u hav when a grp of guys eat tgt ba... haha...
2) went back to sch to discover tt no one else reached yet... *or rather... i dun noe where they went if they reached*... so loitered arnd at class bench... erene n soon kueh came... n we decided to go up to the higher floors so tt we can hav a better view... yw n cj came soon... followed by jy... who brought this tub of ice-cream which was very difficult to open... n when we finally opened it... the ice-cream inside was almost melted... hahaha... so we had a "nice" time gettin each other to eat... haha... but ltr got chased down by this PA gal... who was absolutely furious abt us standin in forbidden grounds... dotz... :(
3) met up wif the rest of the 04S73ians... hanged arnd at the central plaza n watched the light-up... it was nice... i hav some pics... courtesy of gl... den followin tt... we went over to tchs to sit arnd at the terraces... initally had this evil plan to scare those pple runnin on the track *cos we were dressed in black class tee*... hah... but cancelled it in the end... decided to explore the tower block classrms... but b4 we cld enter the ex-4E classrm... got caught by the security guard who scolded us for "threatenin" his ricebowl... :(... got sian diao n went back to hcjc side...
4) song session was absolutely hilarious... while we were singing songs... we did all kinds of round-abt circles... haha... every1 was laughin like mad... n we also played wif this small red balloon which kept flyin out of our boundaries... haha... but we were not as high as we were durin orientation... tt's wad i felt... followin was mass dance... pity hailing n soon kueh... who had to dance wif jas... he was absolutely funny... hahahah... after loiterin round for some time more... took a grp pic n went home... haha... so tt concludes MAF 2005 for us... :)

2005-09-10T08:42:00.000-07:00

Fire lightup...

2005-09-10T08:41:00.000-07:00

MAF lightup...

Muggin session at National Library

2005-09-07T22:51:00.000-07:00

haha... went out wif da jie today to national lib to mug... being the late queen tt she is... i arrived much earlier... so i loitered arnd at the B1 level... when she came... went up to L7 to mug... wow... must say tt she's damn pro... juz walked past the guard holdin 1 big stack of notes lah... i cld nva hav done tt w/o the "sneaky" look on my face... :)... the environment there was perfect for muggin... did a whole lot of chem qns... nearly killed myself esp over the rj paper... it was so damn tough... :(... after muggin for like nearly 3 to 4 hrs... left to go mac's... *where jie nearly killed herself over the twisted fries n the lemon tango sauce... n her GIT is givin her probs now... wahahahahaha... wish u all the best for ur stomach... :)...*... oh... but when we were collectin our bags... there was this grp of guys who cldn't close their locker n kept scoldin the locker... it took me A LOT of effort to stop myself frm burstin out laughin rite in front of their faces... but they were so hilarious... hahahahaha... it was very hard controllin my laughter... :)... nxt time if i hav the chance i will go back there again... haha...

Stuck in the pit???

2005-09-05T22:41:00.000-07:00

woke up today tinkin tt i will do better for my revision... wif this great hope in mind... embarked on doin my maths revision... but the truth proves otherwise... it only served to tear down my confidence even more... n now... i can say tt i almost totally freak out at the sight of area n vol. qns... tried to rebuild my confidence by doin some other stuff... slightly fruitful until i stumbled onto another qn which bogged my mind for half n hr w/o noein wad to do... if i cld hav a wish... i will pray for a miracle to happen so tt i can pass my prelims... tt goes for all subjects... esp GP... but nvm... read n heard some of the most idiotic comments tt some1 can ever tink of... in the newspaper... there was this comments section where this Mr X commented abt Project Superstar... which ended quite some time ago... n naturally... he has smth against Kelvin winnin... n he even speculated tt wif Kelvin's victory... more physically disabled pple will soon join such competitions... n he said tt it made the whole competition a joke... n he even raised the qn: "if Kelvin's voice can touch others... y cant the voices of other NORMAL pple touch others as well???... but they r out... " ok... not tt im some crazy staunch supporter of any1... *i jus go for gd singin n nice songs*... but being disabled doesn't mean tt he cant pursue his dreams rite???... every1, whether normal or disabled... has the right to pursue their own dreams... n i seriously dun c anythin wrong wif tt... if the nxt superstar competition sees more of such disabled GOOD singers... i dun c y not... so instead of the competition being a joke... i wld like to say tt this Mr X is a bigger joke himself... his writin shows his absolute "superiority tinkin" abt him being normal *or so i assume*... n the conclusion is: 1) the editor is stupid to hav put such a meaningless article in the newspaper... or 2) the newspaper simply lacks pple writin letters in... if tt's the case... den i will write in... the newspaper can relax on tt... den on the car wif my family to dinner... the radio was havin a discussion abt whether it is justified for Singapore to lend a helpin hand in the recent Katrina disaster tt hit US... some pple disagreed... with very foolish reasons... their main line of tot was tt since US is such a big bully... we shld not help them... oh... so u all mean tt the lives of thousands can be counted as insignificant n unworthy of help simply becos their leaders are tyrants???... n when one day we will nd their help... n they refuse to... these pple will simply say: 'there... c... US is such an unhelpful nation...'... ok... im smtimes equally pissed abt the bullyin tactics of the US... but den... we r not helpin the leaders... we r helpin the commoners... so pls bear tt in mind... dotz... i cant believe tt some pple can hav such selfish tinkin... :(

When disappointment sets in...

2005-09-03T22:08:00.000-07:00

oh... suddenly realised tt by this time, my da mei shld be on her flight to england le... here's wishin her all the best in wadever she does over there n may she adapt quickly... yup... hope to c u soon again... ok... today was the day when i was so totally disappointed wif myself... mayb all along i had this high expectation of myself ba... but when u simply stare at the silly maths eqn n absolutely hav no inkling n idea as to how to approach it... when u get stuck at a certain step... n a moment of "enlightenment" puts u back to work only to work urself into the same dead end which u came to earlier... n it provides u wif further frustration until u almost feel like tearin tt silly piece of paper out... n as usual... my mood was very contagious... n every1 in my family felt it... dotz... im sorry for it... but it juz makes me feel so stupid... so dumb... a total crush of confidence... i juz hope tt i can rebuild this confidence in time... :(...

Holiday plans... my future???

2005-08-31T12:21:00.000-07:00

hmm... amidst the gruellin stress of preparin for my prelims... n A's... n the terrible feeling of blankness when u start attemptin a past yr prelim paper n realise tt u can only smoke thru it... *but den... i shld be grateful tt i can smoke thru it rite???*... MCQ becomes reduced to a game of guessing... n the rest of the papers... cant seem to express myself anymore... dotz... nvm... as i was sayin... i will list down some holiday plans... which can be smth i will be lookin forward to after 28th Nov... the final day of A's for me... of course the plan is worked on the assumption tt i will be enlisted into NS in january... *which as far as i heard will be the case... but nvm*... so in effect... i only hav 1 mnth of holidays to enjoy... so pity me... thx...
1) 28th Nov: ok... my Bio S paper ends in the morning... so i shall either: go home n attempt to rot in front of my com by playin a com game... or go out wif others who hav alr finished their exam days ago to eat, watch show... or go KBOX... haha... the usual favourite... :)
2) 30th Nov to 2nd Dec: highlight of the yr... 04S73 yr 2 class chalet... tt one is a must go for me... n the same goes for all 04S73ians hor... u all jolly well better not come n tell me tt u cant go hor... or else i will erhemm... *haha... juz jokin*... but i REALLY do hope tt u all will go... its probably our last class event after all... yup... :) n this time i can stay for the full period... not like last yr when i had to go home on sat nite... haha... n we r in the midst of planning smth really meaningful for every1... so moral of the story: MUST COME HOR!!!
3) 8th Dec: Prom nite... haha... so excitin... when u can c all ur classmates dressed up in their nice nice clothes... n takin pics all over the place... my goal for the prom nite is to take a personal pic wif every1 i noe there... as well as a few grp photos... so hope every1 will shang2 lian3 n take one wif me hor... haha... *sounds quite despo, but nvm*... still considerin if it will be worth my money to go n attempt to do a makeover... so tt hopefully the final impression i giv pple wont be a nerdish lookin person... hmm... c first lah... haha... :)... n we mite be stayin over at some hotel rm... haha... i expect a crazy nite...
4) 15th to 17th Dec: church youth camp... oh, this one is also a must go... cos i missed it a few yrs back... n i really miss all the fun... so i will CONFIRM go... haha... :)
5) hospital attachment: hmm... i wld like to apply to some hospital as an observer attachment so tt i can learn more abt the life of a medical professional... but i wonder if they will be willing to accept some1 who will only work there for 1 mnth... or on the other hand... they shld be glad lah... cos they only nd to bother themselves wif me for 1 mnth only... haha... any1 else interested can tell me... den mayb we can apply tgt... thx... :)
6) will spend some time goin out wif frens... esp those who will be goin overseas soon... cos i dun noe when can i see them again... yup... as for the rest... i tink i will be available most of the time as well... so feel free to contact me if u all nd 1 more person to fill up the grp... if u all dun nd... also nvm... still ask me lah... the more the merrier mah... haha... :)
guess by the time i can finish these goals... i will jolly well become a recruit at Tekong liao... sigh... how i wish my hols can be longer by abt 1 mnth... den i can hav more time to do wad i want to do... :)... but plans r plans... the impt task now is to mug hard n do well for exams... so here's all the best to every1 who is takin exams n readin this entry... jia you n take care!!! :)

Oh Please...

2005-08-28T22:29:00.000-07:00

went wif ks after church today to the new national lib at bras basah area to mug... had high hopes intially... after hearin all abt how grand it was n such... my first trip there u c... so along the way got niaoed for being such a "swaku"... haha... anythin lah... been bullied by u so long liao... :)... but anyway... the buildin really looked grand... n nice... initial tots were: "hmm... it wld be such a wonderful feelin to mug in such a nice place... "... went all the way up to the highest floor (11th storey)... *haha... the lift ride was shiok...* where we were abt to make our entrance into the reference section when we were stopped by this Indian security guard... "sorry... but no bags allowed in the reference section..."... n he pointed us towards a notice which said tt no bags or any other materials except blank paper n writin materials r allowed... n in an attempt to be nice... he shoved a pamphlet to us tellin us abt the nearest CC where u can mug... wah... thx arh... rejected, the 2 of us decided to go try our luck at the other floors... all the same situation... all wif security guards who will check wad u r bringin in b4 they allow u to pass them... so security guards in the national lib can be used as customs officers as well... n the reason cited by one of the guards was tt "we will be hoggin the place n deprivin others of the chance to use the resources..."... oh... im not angry abt tt... since its valid anyway... but den... pls hav a gd look at the situation... even if u let all the "intendin muggers" in... there's still sooooooo much empty space... both of us were really pissed... tried to get past the security check by tryin to smuggle in our muggin stuff... but failed... dotz... the lib tried to make up for it by settin up a muggin bench at the basement... but tt one is so small... :(... totally dampened our muggin mood n the end result was tt we went home w/o any fruitful work... the only more useful thing we did was juz to hav time to chat abt some stuff... argh!!!... rigidity sux!!! :(